Hello Bee,
Although you posted this on 4.03, I was searching the internet for a support group. I was feeling sad myself about my journey. I want you to know I have been trying for 2 years, and I urge you to keep trying. I found out another couple close to us is pregnant tonight, and I'm trying not to be jealous. Tonight was just my breaking point. I needed to find support, so I hopped on here. I have yet to try IUI and will all the COVID stuff we won't be for a while. I just wanted to urge you to keep going, since I'm at 2 years. It does get slightly easier emotionally. I remember I started accepting and trying different options after a year. The hardest part is the first few months I think. Hang in there!

I didnt know how to put it in words.......I tired of feeling ....

I am sorry you are going through this. Unfortunately, ttc journey is very emotionally draining. However, I advise to stay positive as your ttc has not taken too much time. A few friends of mine tried for a baby for over 5 years, and two ladies even traveled to Poland to undergo IVF. Good luck x

I have been trying for 10 months and know exactly how you feel. It’s literally the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through and I feel like a hopeless failure.

My husband and I have been trying since September 2017. I had emergency surgery in May 2018. I had a large cyst on my left ovary that ruptured and my doctor had to remove my left ovary and fallopian tube. When I went back to the doctor for my post op, she told me that the left ovary was severely damaged by the cyst and that I was bleeding internally. I suffered a miscarriage in November 2019. The pain of that has been difficult.

I feel the same way every month Bee. Last month, I thought maybe this could be it because my period was 3 days late and I told myself if it didn't come the next morning, I was going to do a test. My period showed that night. The worst part of this whole thing is social media, seeing all your friends on posting up their pregnancy announcements, gender reveal and baby photos. I often wonder why it is so hard for so many of us and so easy for others.

I just had an HSG test done on the 7th. My remaining fallopian tube is not blocked and my husband's lab work all came back normal. My doctor is starting me on Femara next cycle to boost my ovulation. I am hoping this works for us. I am trying to be optimistic.

BeachBlonde - Friends of my sis were in the same shoes having issue with ovulation and ovarian reserve. Femara worked for one lady, and the second one got pregnant thanks to DHEA and RPR. Fingers and toes crossed.

I know this feeling. I have lost two babies and had so many more failures. When we try to conceive and it doesn't work that was the exact phrase I used, "I am mourning something I don't have yet." from experience I know that being sad at failed conception is terrible and miscarriage is worse. We are still trying to this day after suffering so much loss. I am truly sorry, just know that you are not alone and it can happen for you.

We've tried 4 ivf cycles home. All they failed. Early mc each time..The thing which irritated me the most was that our dr couldn't explain the reason. We did pgd/pgs testings but both showed nothing wrong with our embies. He told this was my body rejecting the beans from growing longer than 6-7 wks. That was not enough for me! We switched the clinic. Found ouselves abroad. After all the investigations done again our new Dr told us the risks for another mc is high, so we'd better look onto surrogacy. At least she was honest with us and not just wanting our money from the pocket..
This path is very hard to pass..

@Betsy123,
Sorry to hear this.
Mutual tolerance and respect is the key through this path. Dh has always been amazing for me. The time we find out about infertility divided our life in two - before and after. But at the same time it made us both stronger and even more loving and supporting. We couldn't hold the pregnancies after several ivf shots.. This was a long and tough way to pass for both. But afterall we keep on moving. We're currently on a completely new route – own egg surrogacy. All this covid nightmare makes the process a bit more intricate, but I'm sure the clinic's doing its best to help. This pains to see so many youngies are struggling for LOs..

@BeccaBecca - I am sorry to know your IVFs failed, Do you know the reasons of BNF? A few friends of mine were also unsuccessful, and IVF PGS NGS worked out for them. Good luck on your new route. Keep fingers crossed x

@fffFFF, thank you for the compassion. For some reason then when I was ready to have a baby, my body said otherwise!
Me - 42. endometriosis & PCOS adding other diagnosis. ttc since 11/2014.
Got several IUIs under the belt – all BFN. IVF#1: retrieved 7 mature, 6 fertilzed. Fresh cycle- transfer 1 grade B embryo/ hatched. On progesterone/ estradiol. Miscarried. IVF#2-IVF#4 – similar results - all miscarriages. Each time beta rising then extremelly falling down. We never got exact explanation why it was happening to us. Our previous doc just told ''It happens.'' And this answer broke us even more. Then we both decided we wanted to switch the clinics/treatment plans. Started to look for more reasonable/affordable prices. This way led us abroad where our new doc told it was going to be surrogacy.
If no other way was left, then we agreed. At least we could proceed with trying out my own eggs, keeping my own genes..