Infertility Support Group
In vitro fertilization is one of the most common and utilized ways of treating conception problems. This support group is dedicated to those beginning their journey with IVF and needing support. Join the community and share your experiences, advice, and story with people going through similar challenges starting a family.
I feel like I am all alone, I feel like I'm never going to get to be a mom. I just want one thing so badly and I can't seem to let go. I try to move on, just live my life. I try to find the little things to be happy about I am just jealous all the time. Especially jealous over my BIL and SIL. I don't have any reason to be jealous they don't have an ideal situation. I mean they had a baby and have no car! They don't have jobs, they live in a basement and they get everything handed to them. I have to see them and be around them and it just makes me so angry! They had the baby 2 weeks ago and I have not seen him. It makes me a little sad but at the same time, I don't want to be around them. I don't know how to not feel like a jelly green monster all the time.
We have been married for 9 years and I have wanted a baby since day one. I feel like it consumes my whole life and I don't know how to process the idea that it may never happen for us. I just can't picture my life without a baby of my own. We have talked about our future family and to see that dream die just breaks my heart. Today is just one of those days that I feel all alone. I just want to feel happy again. I want to not be so petty and angry all the time. I want holidays to be a good time with family, right now I am dreading them.
I totally understand the jealousy over family. A couple that is a family friend that I was honest with from the time I found out they were pregnant that I was happy for them but I was struggling, has constantly caused me pain. One because it breaks my heart and i know it is on me that i allow it too and two because they have not been so supportive back. It just sucks when you can't wrap you're head around why certain things happen.
Please don't blame yourself and just remember when you're in this head space, don't beat yourself up for feeling it. Allow yourself to be mad and feel everything because it will help you process. Best of luck and big hugs.
I would like to note you should take care of your own mental health. If being around someone who just had a baby hurts then you don't have to go see the baby. If you feel like you can explain to the parents that your own feelings are raw and it's nothing against them. Anyone worth their salt will understand. Again, only if you feel like it. You are allowed to feel upset whether your emotions are purely rational or not.