Hello everyone. I am just so frustrated and hurt. Well I decided to move forward with my seconf FET cycle after losing my baby boy at 17 weeks. I had my hysteroscopy on 10/21 where they found an infection in my uterus. They then put me on an aggrassive treatment that pretty much drained me. i was sick for days while taking antibiotics. Well, i thought all was well and that I was good to go. I started estrace pills and patch on 11/10. I went in this morning for b/w and an u/s. The doctor then told me I had saw fluid and that my lining isnt getting thicker so I guess that means that I am not responding to the medication. I dont know. im waiting to hear back from them so they can tell me the results of my bloodwork and for them to tell me what next. i am just getting so frustrated. This is so hard and i feel like I am alone in this journey. No one understands me. I know i have to stay positive but this is truly becoming too much for me. What is God trying to show me. I am trying to have patience but this is hard. Plus My due date is coming up for my baby boy Aiden 1/19/2010. I cant help but keep thinking that I am suppose to be getting ready to go on maternity leave to have my baby boy and having a baby shower but instead I am going through this emotional roller coaster instead.

I'm sorry for the ramble but i am having a rough morning. I