So my husband is amazing. He's been so supportive through all of this. I honestly ended up joining this group because I needed some women who understood what this is like. Like I said my husband is wonderful and supportive but just doesn't understand what this is like for me. Most days this is all I can think about. Whether it is right after a doctor appointment or iui where I am feeling excited and hopeful or the more common days where I am sad and want to either be alone or have him be sad with me.. it's hard to explain to someone who doesn't understand my sadness even when it is my husband. He tries so hard to be optimistic and stays so positive and has recently seemed irritated when I bring up my sadness or frustration. I try to talk about other things but some(most) days it's hard to keep my mind on other things. I feel like all I talk about it this or work which he has seemed to notice and responds less to now. When I talk to him about his reaction he says he just doesn't understand how I can't stop thinking about it. This came up because I just got done telling him how I can't bring myself to go to a dual baby shower for 2 staff members at my job. He said he thinks I should go and that because I am a supervisor I need to. I immediately feel like I need to defend myself and explain why and then just get irritated. He truly is amazing and never meaningfully makes me feel this way, I know... but still... is it just because he can't comprehend how bad I want to have a baby shower or want to feel something move in my belly?... I'm so unbelievably sick or hearing about this upcoming baby shower or what people are buying them or how one of them is so sick of summer because she is so hot because she is pregnant.. I would love to be sweating extra because or my little person. I hope my situation isn't isolated.. I really don't want to feel alone on this one... thanks all.