I am just having a "meltdown" right now- trying to start af after spotting for 3 days so far... I feel like an emotional wreck. I have my lap in two days and I am freaking out! I also found out one of my best friends, whom I teach with (and we started trying around the same time) is pregnant. I am SOOOO happy for her, but at the same time I am so jealous- and feeling REALLY guilty about that. I just keep thinking- will it ever happen to me?? How long can I stand this (and for me it's only been a year). I don't know if I have the strength to go through this every month. I also don't know how to continue to be such close friends with those who are getting pregnant around me. I feel like such an AWFUL person to have these feelings about others. I just needed to vent a bit... thank goodness for this community.
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