I am so sorry that this incredibly shitty situation happened to you. It's bad enough that we have to deal with IF, but then we also have to deal with the outside world that just doesn't get it... I hope that you are feeling better and that you can find peace as you move forward in life. Sending strength and support to you...

Hi, dear Marlablue! Dear, lovely lady, you cannot think just that way! Some extra weight doesn't make you ugly. And that people think you're pregnant - it's just a coincidence. Try to take this more reluctant. I'll explain here. I've never been a slim lady, and people happened to suspect me of being pregnant from time to time, really. That times it was a joke for me. I wished my weight was normal. But now in my 41 yo, When I AM slim because of enormous treatments and diets I do believe this is not the greatest aim in life. After 2 years being married to a wonderful man we are still childless. I'm diagnosed on diminished ovarian reserve and it turned out for us that we aren't able to conceive with OE at all.
It's the 4th week we've been in de ivf program in Ukrainian Biotexcom fertility clinic. Having great hope for the process and in further life.
The only thing for us in such a situation is to make attempts, being they successful or not as in our case (previously) but it keeps us going, really.
Dear M, my heart absolutely goes for you as I know how it feels. Make up your mind and act. May God bless you on this path x

Hi Marlablue! Your words are full of pain((( its not fair(( If I only could help. But only you can do smth with your life, change everything. Just understand that it is not a finish. Try everything possible. There are so many clinics where doctors can help you to deal with your problems. Infertility is not a diagnosis for today. Dont let yourself think about infertility. And say all around that when it is right moment you surely become a mother. We are all here infertile, but more of us are happy parents today and you will be too. There are so many possibilities around. And Ukraine is a good country for becoming a mother. It is not India and medical sphere in Ukraine is highly developed. Actually it doesnt matter where, just dont give up. Talk with experienced people, they can give you good advices about clinics.

Thank you all for your kind words. It's now been two days, and I'm doing ok. My sweet husband held me while I cried when I got home from work. He knows how painful it is for me. I will get through it, and I do need to work a little harder to be healthy.

That said...I am in that place of transition, knowing that I am not going to be a mother. It's been 11 years of trying on and off (with my ex-husband, and my current husband). I made the decision early on that medical intervention was not for me. So it was either going to happen naturally, or not at all. My husband and I discussed adoption for some time, and have chosen that this doesn't fit us either. I know that there are avenues we could take to have a child, but if mother nature doesn't cooperate, it wasn't meant to be. I am ok with my decisions. I am just in that transition period of going from accepting my decisions, to accepting that it won't happen. I've spent time with a psychologist, and we have worked through some tools that will help me any time a sad moment arises. I allow myself to feel them, and I help myself through it. It will all be ok. I was just needing to vent, and I was so sad the other day.

Thank you, all, for listening!