Well I had a bad weekend with the doctor's and u/s and all that stuff. I am feeling so defeated it's not even funny. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, but I truly feel like giving up. I don't know how much more I can take, or pay for because every cycle get's more and more expensive.

On Sat. I was going for an u/s with the RE (not my OB which I regularly see if IF treatments) - but I had to go to the RE because it was the weekend so they give me the referal to go over there. ANYWAY...I was suppose to have u/s and get trigger shot and then come back on Sunday for IUI. WELLLLLL...it seems as though my lining was too thin on Sat. so they didn't want to give me the shot - so they gave me an estrogen patch and scheduled me to come back on Sun. for another u/s and possibly trigger. WELL...once again my lining wasn't thick enough so they put it off. My follicle is ready to burst I can tell and it's huge! I'm on CD16 as of today. I'm suppose to go back for YET another u/s to check my lining but I'm just so exhausted and don't even have time for all of this, that I'm not sure if I'll go or not. So this may have been a wasted cycle if my lining didn't thicken up with the patch. AND then the next cycle I'll probably have to do injectables and that's even MORE expensive! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...I don't think this is ever going to happen to me. My sister said "Well when you least expect it, it happens!" and I said "yeah but that is never the case for me!"

OK...well I just had to vent and rant a bit, I'm just BLAH! I have fiance going to buy PreSeed tonight just in case my lining is thicker and I'll just BD at home instead of IUI.