i know exactly how you feel.. i went to the doctor again today and im at the last part of the process but it hasnt been easy. On top of everything i didnt have anyone to talk to about it ...so here i am. New to this group and my first time ever doing this. When i was doing those injections on my belly all that happen was that my lower belly grew, seem like i was two three months pregnant and i was a lil moody but, nothing crazy. Everything was totally fine and i was totally okay with everything. So good Luck kaylairene24 !!

I hope the doctor today brought you good news? What process are you doing right now? Welcome to the group and please feel free to talk to me if you want. I would love to hear your story!

IVF can be a lonely process. My husband and sweet and supportive but he can't know what it's actually like to do all the injections and feel the bloat, go through retrieval and transfer, and experience all the up and down emotions, plus the disappointment when we don't get any good embryos or implantation doesn't happen. It's soul-crushing like my heart is going through a meat grinder. It makes staying positive so difficult, as I watch women who don't even want a baby (aka my SIL) get pregnant, or women who throw their babies into garbage bags and into the dumpster. OMG my heart dies every time I hear that.

Abbey, I completely know what you mean. My husband tries very hard to understand, but there is no possible way they will ever complete understand all of the heart ache and actual pain we have to go through. It is very lonely. It is very hard to listen and watch all of the people who do terrible things like that. I also feel like all of my friends and co workers who are getting pregnant say such ignorant things to me. Yesterday someone asked me how everything was going, and of course I said fine, because it is impossible to put into words how I am doing. She responded " Have you been thinking that maybe you will never be able to get pregnant", in my head I thought why would you ever say that to someone struggling.

Kaylairene24- wow, I can't believe someone asked you that. So insensitive!! Do they even hear what they're saying and how it comes across?!

I'm in my 8th cycle right now. I'm almost embarrassed to admit that. We've been trying for 2 years total but just one year with IVF. At this point I'm wondering why I'm still doing this. I bet the nurses at the center look at me and feel sorry for me and wonder why I keep torturing myself. We don't want to do the donor egg route, no offense to anyone who is doing it or has done it. It's just a personal choice. My husband wants me to stop IVF soon and just try naturally; he doesn't like all the drugs in my body. I may be nearing the point where I'm ready to stop IVF and just try naturally, but I'm not quite there yet. I am willing to do one more cycle after this round. I feel like my life is on hold while all this is happening, like I'm stuck and can't move forward until I know I'm ready to stop IVF and move forward with my life. You know what I mean?

Abbey , I am very sorry it took me so long to get back to you. I was on vacation and trying to avoid the real world and thing about all of this. You know how hard it gets every where you look its all you can think about. It is completely understandable why you do not want to donor eggs, you are very strong this is a very hard thing to have to go through. I am proud of you. All of the drugs that get pumped into our body is very rough, and I see where he is coming from. I do know what you mean , but just remember that no matter what you choose for yourself you are doing the right thing. That you are loved and it is hard, you are aloud to take your time deciding. IVF is a very difficult thing for a women to go through. What steps did you take before IVF?