gosh it's been a rough couple of weeks. My husbands sister in law announced her pregnancy while I got yet again a new infertility diagnoses. That makes 3. My husband and I laid in bed all day. He works out of town so it's nice to have these lazy days with him. But this week being lazy just doesn't help. For dinner I suggested breakfast burritos. He said he only had money for a box of kraft mac and cheese cause we have to pay for the IUI.. I'm tired of not having enough money for breakfast burritos because my baby makers just don't want to work. And no this is not just about breakfast burritos it's never just about breakfast burritos. It's about the guilt of using your every last penny for something you want so badly that has no guarantee. It's about feeling the guilt of putting pressure on your spouse.. baby factories (fertile mertiles) just can't and don't understand, infertility rips apart every aspect of a relationship. Financial, mental, physical, and not to mention career. I've missed so much work for all the drs appointments there's not much point to me keeping a job anymore.. gosh this is hard.