Hi Jordyn22 - I'm so very sorry for your struggles. It is so hard and it is frustrating not being able to turn your thoughts off. I was in your exact spot not too long ago. Unfortunately I have not gotten great news yet either, but I was 30 when our fourth IUI failed. My husband and I agreed that we would move on after that, however, since insurance didn't cover any part of IVF and money doesn't grow on trees, to say we were beyond stressed and didn't know how to take on IVF at the time is an understatement. I hate thinking back on those months of not knowing what we were going to do! I understand where you're at.

My husband and I sat down and weighed out all the pros and cons when we were both relaxed and could really talk about it. We came to the conclusion no matter what, IVF would be worth it. We opened a credit card and just went for it. It seemed like A LOT at the time (and it was and is) but I'm glad we did it. It seemed like the best option when we really went over every thing. Our clinic ended up helping us with meds and will be giving us half off our next FET (sounds so funny when put like that, but I have found when you tell your clinic you're out of pocket, there are ways they will help). I just hope you find peace in all of this and what feel right for you and your husband. Unfortunately there is no concrete answers on what's right... even though I really wish there were.

If you can, give yourself some time to feel better after this cycle. I wish you all the best and hope you feel a little better soon. You can do difficult things!!

Omg, honey, this pains so much to hear this..poor thing, i know how devastating those strugglings are. I was there, at this very point years ago. Not getting younger, it felt like time was leaking out from my hands. so were the hopes. In a couple of yrs I'd be considered ripe age bravie. Dh was 44 yo, and absolutely perfect in this game. Moreover, he has a kid from the previous marriage, meaning his proven fertility. So I knew the problem was in my. i didn't understand why it was not working for us, i hoped up to the final point this was my ex with his issues - that's why i couldn't conceive. But our first dr determined quite fast the problem was in me. I remember he wasn't too compassionate with things happening to me. He just told me ''You reached DOR (diminished ovarian reserve. Even now I cannot figure out what he actually meant by ''reached'' dx. Was he telling ''you've waited too long!'' or ''it's not surprising you have this issue'' etc. The thing I know for sure he didn't take our concerns at heart.) so we switched. Our new dr recommended trying ICSI shots with oe. So we did, but got no luck. My last ICSI ended up with early mc. I didn't know how much could I take more..if not my amazing supportive dh by side I really doubt I could ever succeed.. Our next step was donor egg IVF. We went for the guaranteed plan of 5 shots. it took us 2 though to conceive our DS. I know this all is also about the huge financial burden we have to face. I'm sorry IVF is not the route for you yet for this reason. I thought it would be nice to start sth like ''project me'' currently. meaning you'll take the best care of yourself. Take vitamins and supplements your dr recommends you. doing some yoga - just everything which can distract you from negative thoughts. I'm not sure this is the right time for another IUI shot right now. You have to heal both emotionally and physically. Give yourself some time to recover well and then go down to treatments. I hope this doesn't sound patronizing, never meant that. Just wanted to be useful and remind you that you aren't alone. Hugs xx

I would recommend to consider IVF at overseas clinics. A friend of my sis underwent in the top IVF clinic in Gdansk, Poland and paid only EUR2,500 for her treatment with meds

I would recommend to consider IVF at overseas clinics. A friend of my sis underwent in the top IVF clinic in Gdansk, Poland and paid only EUR2,500 for her treatment with meds