Ok so I know I should be incredibly happy for my cousin. She is 9weeks pregnant (we just found out). And I am happy for her since this time last year she had a miscarriage at about this same gestation. But seeping through the happiness is the ugly green monster of envy and jealousy, followed closely by a deep sense of sadness and then guilt for not being 100% happy. I am on day 9 of my 2ww, but I woke up feeling not pregnant. Like it just didn't work this cycle. Why can't I just be happy for her and have faith in my own body this month? Everything just feels wrong.
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