Hi everyone!! *wave*
Soo, I don't really know how I'm doing. My friends and boyfriend know about my dad. But my mother doesn't. I still cant tell her. I feel soo broken still. But Cutie is helping, it feels like he is glueing pieces together. I love him, we have done stuff. I dont regret it, but I dont feel so self conscious with him either. I feel safer, ) im more adventerous (anxious and shy girl here) with him. He took me bowling and I did a bit.
But I'm still struggling. Im depressed still and feel like in not worthy of him. I'm dirty, he doesnt deserve someone like me. I dont deserve him. He is so amazing and hasn't killed my father.
I get too high strung, hyper, a bit violent (play fighting and messing around, i end up actually hurting people) i never mean too. Too emotional and i hate it. It makes me hate myself.
I finally got a kitten after wanting my own for 10 years. Shes called bear.
I’m having a hard time so I figured I would reach out & ask for support or a hug rite nowI know I’m gonna be up all night with the amount of anxiety pumping through my bodyI wrote a whole journal about the stuff with my physical & mental health stuff going on lately I don’t think my hands & my head has the ability to write that much more rite now again atm ... but I know I’m struggling so...