Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
So far things seem to be getting worse. Father is angry and cussing and mother is very very sick. I'm still weak and recovering from my.... Anyways, I'm feeling more life come back into me as days go by and I'm rebuilding strength. Sisters are beating down on me a bit like before. They all still don't know what I did.. Thank god. I'm stuck in my room listening to music and trying to forget about the world I live in. I can't feel anything emotionally, just numbness. I keep seeing past and present abusers, more memories are flooding out and just so much physical pain... It's all so overwhelming. Most of all, I miss my son. I can't get him out of my mind... I wish he didn't die. And I can't stop thinking about June coming up. June is when my cousin raped me for the last time....
On a better note, as we were driving around I saw my future home, a domestic violence shelter I've been researching and I plan to run away soon. Very soon.
P.S. I'd like to thank you all for your support and kind words. It means alot to me.
On a better note, as we were driving around I saw my future home, a domestic violence shelter I've been researching and I plan to run away soon. Very soon.
P.S. I'd like to thank you all for your support and kind words. It means alot to me.
I have kids and I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. I know that grief like that probably never goes away. But please know that when you feel the horrible pain that goes with that grief-there are other ways to cope besides hurting yourself. I know it is easier for me to say because today, right this minute I am not in that horrible place. When I am in the middle of it, I have to fight the urge not to hurt myself too. It is really hard.
I just want to thank you for being alive. Please give yourself a hug from me. Be nice to yourself today. Life sucks sometimes and it sounds like right now you are having a suckky time-but it does get better. Don't ever forget that there are people who care-I am one of them.
((hugs))
Your son died?
Oh my - you have so much to hurt from. I want to come and wrap you up in warm fluffy soft - yet safe - white clouds. Float away from all these dangers and pains.
I really hope you get into this shelter and that it turns out to be exactly what you need for your next step towards some peace and happiness in your life.