I think I know what you mean. I always find some reason to cry and start an argument with my husband. I never realized I was doing it until one year he pointed it out and I was like...oh my gosh, your right. I don't know why I do this, it's very frustrating. Kinda gives new meaning to the song, "It's my party and I'll cry if I want to". Lol
Anyway, try to surround yourself with people you enjoy being around and do what you want. Not what people think you should be doing. I hope you do have a happy birthday. My favorite birthday cake is lemon cake with lemon icing with a big scoop of vanilla ice cream on the side...mmmm! For my birthday dinner I always either have all the sushi I can eat or my husband makes me eggplant parm, those are my fav dinners. I love food, that always makes me happy, so I eat what ever I love all day! Then I'm happy ;) Mabey start planny all the good stuff you can eat!
I hope I helped a little, I know how hard b-days are. One of the biggest days when your childhood stares you right in the face or lack there of. Take care, don't let anyone else take the joy out of birthdays for you.

I honestly try to ignore birthdays and holidays as much as possible.
Holidays were when our relations were all together and interacting with one another.
Sort of a dysfunctional family Olympics.

BTW, my birthday is two days after yours. Maybe that's why I've been feeling desolate.

Happy Birthday Loum50
I understand how birthdays can be sad. I don't remember a party as well. But I do remember having parties for other siblings. I just can't remember mine??
As an adult and young teen I did plan out my own parties. I sort of made them happen for myself. and as I got older friends would surprise me :) But I remember even though I was being celebrated I wasn't genuinely happy -- deep down. But to answer your question "is there such a thing as a Happy Birthday?"
Yes, it will be the day when we can be happy we were born, and celebrate our life. I think that when i've healed much more I can be deeply happy for my day of Celebration. may life be yours today :)

Thank you. No one is coming over and I can't go anywhere because I can't drive because of the amputations. I am going to make some artichokes this afternoon. I hope I don't end up cutting, since so far I'm feeling very depressed.

May your spirits be lifted and may you have a wonderful birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!

Happy birthday..stay put. :)

loum50,

Today is your birthday and the world would be less if you weren't in it...believe it or not.

If you can't celebrate for yourself, then celebrate for that little boy of you who bore so much. Show him that you care enough to acknowledge him...make something for him.

And because the brain can't tell the difference between what we imagine and reality, put a big smile on your face and "pretend" if you must, that you are happy for the child-self of you.

Happy birthday, dear loum50.

xx
SuzA

I did manage to go out and plant some flowers. It's 80 degrees C here and I think I'm going into the bedroom where it is air conditioned and watch some TV or maybe read.

Happy Birthday loum.

Thank you. It's the day after and with everyone's support, I feel a lot better.

Good!

Happy birthday,Loum,
Bon Anniversaire and many more others filled with more and more joy and blessings!

Happy belated Birthday Ioum. You deserve a special day, you have always deserved to feel special and I'm really sorry you didn't get that as a kid.
Could you nominate another non-birthday where you treat yourself like the special birthday boy I imagine you must wish you'd felt like?

Thank you everyone. Holidays are hard for me especially since my wife passed away July 2, 1911. My son and his family have me over for Christmas and Thanksgiving. I'm also going over to their house today for a cookout. I do try to have a good time, but it's hard.