Eventually things do change...If that therapists is not for you stay put in there maybe you'll find anotherone...If not our inner self does heal too with time.

Its hard to go it alone but don't think that it doesn't happen.We eventually do feel better and can cope more..huggs :)

I have tried and tried and just can not do it anymore. I have nothing to live for but more grief.

Listen to me. You have SO much to live for. And I went through three therapists before I found the one I actually like, which is who I'm seeing now. She is my fourth! And guess what? When I go to college this fall, I have to start with a NEW therapist again! It's not easy, but if this one doesn't work out, there are others. There are always solutions to our problems, but suicide is not one of them. I know that it's hard.

Everyday, I wake up with the same damn weight of depression on my chest. I wake up feeling the same misery I felt the day before. And sometimes, during the day, I think, "Why am I living, if I'm living with all this pain? What kind of life is this?" I think things like that all the time. It gets exhausting to feel the same way everyday. It gets draining to hurt everyday. But somewhere inside of you, you have to find the slightest bit of strength to carry you through, and the smallest light of hope to hold on to, to remind you that tomorrow is a new day and maybe, just maybe it'll be a good one. I've been in this depressive episode for over a month now. I've been self injuring, and self medicating and crying everyday. But today, I'm actuallly feeling SLIGHTLY better. It's not all the way better, but it's enough to make think, maybe it will eventually get better in time! AND IT WILL!

You can do this. Tell yourself a thousand times.... "I can do this." YOU CAN DO THIS! And we're all here for you!! Hang in there, please!

I just don't think I can.

(((GIANT HUG)))

The grief is wretched, but it all gets grieved out.
It passes, sweetheart.

Be very, very kind to yourself today.
Even if you don't feel like it, believe it or not it can help you get through this.

"Whether you think you can or you can't, you're right."

You CAN do this. and I need you. I don't want to lose you... please.

Happy to say visit went well with new therapist. She has a real plan and is funny but serious. She said with some of the meds I am on I will never heal as it shuts me down, and she needs me aware of what is happening. Looking forward to next visit. THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT. Only bad part is she does homework, which I hate but will survive.

So glad it is working out for you! Do your homework! :)

I'm SO glad you liked your new therapist! This is great news. I'm awfully relieved because I was worried about what was gonna happen if you didn't! Anyway, I get homework all the time, too. Admittedly, sometimes I just didn't do it. But there was a lot of reading, then answering dumb questions that were like, "have you ever felt this way? Describe a time in which you can relate to this scenario..." I hated it. But it ended up helping me quite a bit in the long run!!!

I'm very happy for you! Yay!! :)

thanks guys, No homework first visit, yeah. But I will do it. I need to do it if want to get better.

I am so glad you are feeling better-we all know that horrible desperate feeling but it does pass eventually. I hardly felt any self hate today which is the first time in a LONG time-I have no idea why i feel better today, but I do. I wish I could tell you what I did or didn't do that worked to make it feel better, but I honestly have no clue-I just know that the feeling does pass-sometimes it just takes longer than others (((hug)))

(((HUGS)))
I'm glad the new therapist seems helpful. My therapist gives homework also. I've been through very severe depression where I felt suicidal 24/7, but I made it through. Keep working on recovery and you will make it through too. Don't give up.

I am so glad you like the new therapist! (((proudaunt))) please remember how valuable you are as a person and how much we would all miss you if you left DS.

Thank the lord you didnt do that!
Im glad you found a person who cares!
Good luck, and dont scare me like that again!