Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
I feel like i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.. I take these steps to help me get better, to learn copping skills, to speak up,and not to put it all on me. But i feel like it's all pointless in a sense because i'm going to be put right back into the same situation and everything just goes out the window... I was at my aunts house (my cousin stays there when he's here ) and it was so triggering especially the soap in the bathroom which you can smell in the hall ugh i can't stand it it sends me back..so many memories in that house both good and bad. I look at my other cousins and we laugh play joke and fool around, actually it was one of the best days full of laughs in a while... And yet i could lose it all at the blink of an eye.. We take care of our own they say...My family on that side the guys are nothing but alcoholics, pot heads and gang bangers ....How do i end something with out losing it all and that may include my life if i was to get him locked up but to be shunned from the family...ugh idk
I don't have an answer to the rock and a hard place, but I believe you do, it's inside you. Good luck finding it in yourself, keep believing.
hard place, eh? Yeah, i can understand. I was in a hard place a few years back. Well lets say years back. I was young and couldnt really take care of me -- couldnt really move out coz I was too young. Or I didnt have the support. I couldnt run away, I was too chicken. But you know I learnt to cope, not the best answer. But I really did my best in school, worked hard at my goal. Which was to move out and be independant, and have no one hurt me anymore!
That didnt really happen for me, I did move out -- but not independantly. Why am i sharing all of this. To give you hope, to encourage you that you can have a goal and reach it. Make a goal, small steps and you will one day (maybe real soon) be on your own and totally safe.
I know that you dont want to be totally alone, without family. But you can keep the safe ones! the safe family.
I hope im making sense.
but I found a nice catholic church where I stay now and I like to go there, I always thought church didnt help to much because a lot of the mens of my past were from the baptist church... but this catholic church has been a safe place for me and it has helped me increase my faith, it is hard for me to trust... or I trust to easy, I just keep praying my rosary and think about how nice Mother Mary is and how she feels like the momma I didnt have, chin up because it will all be in the past pretty soon ~love