Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
ok..i've never let this stuff out like this. Since my first time when i was maybe 16..17..when my mother told me to get in the bedroom and pull my pants off & lay down on the bed..that there were some things that she was going to teach me, and give me my first oral when she came in, now..this is embarrassing. I seem to have the best orgasm when a woman is stern with me and tells me to cum. Also, i've had times where a woman would pull my pants down..tell me to bend over her knee and spank me. She then would put adult diapers on me & rubber pants. She would sit up in the bed, have me lay across her lap as she nursed me. As she was doing that..she would reach her hand down on my penis & masturbate me..now..tell me im not twisted? I dont like the baby roll, but somehow the humiliation turns me on like nothing else..i guess this comes from my earlier years..so..this is why i feel like i can never have "normal' sex..i hate that word
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
All I can say is that none of this was your fault or your doing. Your reaction is a learned one and what has been learned can be unlearned. Talking about it and letting it out is the start.
Are you seeing a therapist? It is excruciating talking about this stuff, but if you find one you can trust, you can over time confront the shame and humiliation and find a new way of being.
I wish you all the best.
I for one felt SO MUCH better when I began posting about this issue on DS and seeing other people's posts and found out how utterly normal it is under the circumstances. I hope you can come to the same feeling of resolution about it.
I still don't like it. I still feel my fantasies are "anti Me," which is not cool. But I don't linger on it. And they do say it evolves and changes as we heal.
What may be normal to me, may not be to others. What I would consider "normal sex" I would also consider it pretty damn boring.
So often sex is a couples preference and not a societarian one.
If we can't be happy or at peace with ourselves, we'll never be happy.
If what you enjoy doesn't cause harm to yourself or your partner then do what you enjoy, your body is thy temple. So enjoy it...
(No, I'm not going to talk about those things here, this forum isn't adults only, thankyaverymuch....)
I behave with honor, honesty and integrity outside and inside the bedroom, and have nothing to be ashamed of... Though none of it is anything remotely resembling normal.
Weather, I don't think you have anything to be ashamed of...
My take on this is that you have two basic choices?
One, stop engaging in kink because you find it intellectually distasteful and embarrassing.
Two, stop finding it intellectually distasteful and embarrassing.
...You have found Fetlife by now, right?
Kids, DON'T GO TO FETLIFE!
NO NO NO!
(Pictures all the kids on here immediately lying about ages to get onto Fetlife, smacks forehead.)