Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
hating everything including sunshine, flowers, children etc...
begging God to let you die, everyday
want to cut yourself
emotionally convulsing around nice people because it feels so good and bad at the same time
desperately wanted to be touched but at the same time feeling repulsed by touch
constantly wanting to change name, clothes and entire lifestyle
hating mirrors but then liking them because you are not as rupulsive as you feel
wanting to put a hole through your heart or brain most of the time
and on and on
begging God to let you die, everyday
want to cut yourself
emotionally convulsing around nice people because it feels so good and bad at the same time
desperately wanted to be touched but at the same time feeling repulsed by touch
constantly wanting to change name, clothes and entire lifestyle
hating mirrors but then liking them because you are not as rupulsive as you feel
wanting to put a hole through your heart or brain most of the time
and on and on
Here are the symptoms of PTSD:
PTSD can cause many symptoms. These symptoms can be grouped into three categories:
1. Re-experiencing symptoms:
Flashbacksreliving the trauma over and over, including physical symptoms like a racing heart or sweating
Bad dreams
Frightening thoughts.
Re-experiencing symptoms may cause problems in a persons everyday routine. They can start from the persons own thoughts and feelings. Words, objects, or situations that are reminders of the event can also trigger re-experiencing.
2. Avoidance symptoms:
Staying away from places, events, or objects that are reminders of the experience
Feeling emotionally numb
Feeling strong guilt, depression, or worry
Losing interest in activities that were enjoyable in the past
Having trouble remembering the dangerous event.
Things that remind a person of the traumatic event can trigger avoidance symptoms. These symptoms may cause a person to change his or her personal routine. For example, after a bad car accident, a person who usually drives may avoid driving or riding in a car.
3. Hyperarousal symptoms:
Being easily startled
Feeling tense or on edge
Having difficulty sleeping, and/or having angry outbursts.
Hyperarousal symptoms are usually constant, instead of being triggered by things that remind one of the traumatic event. They can make the person feel stressed and angry. These symptoms may make it hard to do daily tasks, such as sleeping, eating, or concentrating.
This is from NIMH-National Institute of Mental Health
"emotionally convulsing around nice people because it feels so good and bad at the same time"
I SO do that, and I HATE it.