Hi. I recently went to trial against my father for 6yrs of sexual abuse. Although I did not win due to statute of limitations it was the first step in this process. Two months later I am finally starting the process of healing with a psychologist. Although my life has been pretty good the damage, defense mechanism and many learned behaviors are holding me back. We are going to do timeline therapy without the hypnosis and erasing. Although painful I don't want to erase. This is a part of my story and as I heal I know I will be able to help others. I have been looking for a local support group so until that starts I joined this one. I will continue this as well for extra support. I am in a prayer group and will be joining a mom group as I am a mother. I am excited to do this even though it will be painful to talk about.

Currently: I have not been able to relate to others recently because all of this is so prevalent in my mind. My psychologist has been gone for two weeks and as of right now that's all I have. I pray and read my bible but have started to slip into old coping mechanisms (isolation, derealization) and since I'm just starting I have not learned new ones to replace the bad ones. I hope to find support in this group.