Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
I live with the guilt and regret of and insect rape child that was once growing inside of me. I chose the option that was best for me but it hunts me everyday, and today is mother's day, to have thought i could have been one myself. At times i think i took the coward way out. I was only 18 and i wish it didn't happen to me. I want the abuse to be over. I can't keep up this act, i'm tired of screaming and yet none can hear me. Everyone in my house turns there back and act like everything is ok. I already feel like shit and yet everyone rubs it in , but you could never tell because my mask over the years have become a brick wall and a smile is all that you can see. I want to be set free, If only it was that easy....
Oh sweetie. I too went through this just to say your not alone, but at 14 never had the choice what to do with my father, uncle or cousin's child, they ritual sacrificed. The thing is when our violation is incestuous, the pain goes deep and the stigmatism thanks to our society would make it hard for a teen unequipped and not supposed to make those choices to be faced with a pregnancy, let alone born from a family member. I'm so sorry you went through this, you were so broken and had to make this difficult choice over your life. I don;t feel it was the cowards way out and honey, I too have faced a choice of abortion at 16, but with a different outcome than you, I lost baby another way. Scream, cry and rage the pain sweetie, don;t keep that inside of you. It WAS NOT your fault! When we don a mask daily for the emotion others want to see we lose ourselves inside, it's hard to not wear a mask when others deny the pain and evil. If the abuse is still going on. GET OUT now! Find someone and be free, you do not deserve to be abused! Freedom comes with an action... it's tough darn tough, but you are so courageous, so brave, so worthy of love and freedom. You little one is innocent of this, his/her blood is not on your hands, rather the B that stole from you! Freedom comes from acknowledging another way than accepting responsibility for everything and moving out and saying NO MORE! Your brick and metal walls will dismantle over time, but it takes time to heal those wounds inside. You'll never forget, but I hope you begin to place the blame and shame on them, not you! Your act is not of ill intent, you did what you thought was best to protect you and the baby. This life is hard. You have so much support here in this group and on DS. Your child is now your guardian angel as my Destany and CAiden and others
YOur child is a guardian angel now.
Love,
~K and Destany's House
Until recently, I was in such dissociation that I could not understand why I felt so bad on mother's day.
I also lost a child at birth and suffered 4 miscarriages.I am telling you this to show you you are not alone;You did what was right at the time.
One day, you will have your own family and children with the person you choose.And you will heal, step by step.
I now have a beautiful son who works in the police, specialised in arresting pedocriminals.I am happily married and this year, for the first time, I will avoid my mother for mother's day and concentrate on my own family.
If you are still being abused, do not be afraid to ask for help.You are not to blame.You deserve to feel safe and cared for.There are people out there ready to hear you, believe and help you.
I send you all my love.