Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...



I hope you will keep these ideas in the fantasy realm, because acting them out could well do more harm to you and leave you with more feelings of guilt and shame. Your relatives did you enough harm - you don't need to add more harm to yourself.
its weird not understanding why we are driven this way until we get help.