Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
Before I was able to verbalise the trauma, I used to have terrible headaches which would distort my face.I had to have injections.There was so much chaos in my head and words and thoughts trying to emerge from my shaterred brain that it gave me those symptoms.
My husband developped epileptic fits for the same reason and he suffers from fibromyalgia.
I also used to feel a sharp pain in my back, like daggers.It was a big hindrance in meditation.I irealised later that fear was implanted in me so that I would not speak.These daggers were a mental image of the death threat put on me if i ever spoke up.
When I was in reactivation of the abuse, I felt like throwing up all the time .Years after, the body memories and taste in the mouth came back.
In my nightmares, I used to dream I was fighting someone, being kiked and in the mornings, i would get up full of pain.
You are a very courageous and strong lady.The pain is going to leave your body once all the trauma has come to the surface.Hang on.You are in the most painful part of the "journey".It is difficult to believe it, but that pain is going to leave.
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Sometimes my rear end feels so full I can't stand it. I sit on the toilet and no matter how hard I push nothing comes out.
The docs can't find a physical cause and say it's just a muscular-skeletal issue...spent 3 months in PT but it didn't resolve it. It never occurred to me it could be psychologically related...all I know is it really interferes with my life and no one seems to know it's etiology or how to resolve it.
If it's psychologically based, I have no clue as to why that particular area or what I need to work on to get it resolved.
All I can offer is .... I feel your pain :)