Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
When I was younger (from maybe 7 to 9) my mum and her friend use to come home drunk late at night while my dad was in bed, wake me up, preform sexual acts on me (sometimes dressing me in lingerie) and me or getting me to do stuff to them.
My dad told me he apparently heard rumours something was going on and he moved us both away.
Years later in my mid 30s I decided I wanted to see her again as we only get 1 mum and I didn't want a life without her in it.
The Problem is I am now very sexualy attracted to her. I have never tried to do anything with her but most of my fantasies now always seem to leed back to my mother.
Is there something wrong with me?
I strongly suggest therapy to deal with these issues.Your early conditioning may have left you vulnerable in a number of ways. Sexuality should lead you towards healthy and loving connections to self and others, but when you've had your sexuality tampered with too early and by the absolutely wrong person, then it can become distorted and deprive you of the healthy and loving connections you deserve. It can lead you towards harmful behavior and relationships.
There are elements of my sexuality that may seem uncommon like being a closet crossdresser with no intentions of going any further and other medical ones I won't mention on a public forum and I have always wounded if any of it has soon roots from back then xx