Incest Survivors Support Group
Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...
I'm tired of asking for help. I've been going to therapy for over a year now for the abuse I got from my mother. It doesn't seem to help. I graduated from outpatient treatment for alcoholism on Friday. I'm sober 5 months now. Big deal. I really want to get drunk. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow. And I'm planning on drinking after that. I spend my days shaking from anxiety. I'm tired of relying on pills to make me feel better. They always come with side effects. I recently got off clozapine which I had been taking for years. I'm tired of feeling drugged. My therapist keeps telling me a job would help. How the hell am I supposed to work in this condition? I would rather die from alcoholism than suicide. I just don't see any way out. And like I said, I'm tired of asking for help. This is more of a rant. But I thought I'd give it a try. idk anymore.
I know the hell your going through, plus being recently sober further adds to that. It's a very rough process yet remember it does get better the longer you stick at it. I took a few breaks here and there but continued after those. Is there something you can do or some god friends you can see that don't drink, and you can relax and have some fun with? It's vital to have a little safe fun when dealing with this hell, it really helps maintain somewhat of a balance. Also distracting yourself with good movies, video games, etc. will help take the mind of things foe a while. It's rough, yet I know it's much better now then it was back then and I'm glad I kept pushing forward, Take care of yourself and we'll be thinking of you, Blaine
http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/meditation.html
...It's the first one, it's basic.
Second, some sort of workout program would probably help.
I really don't drink much but I now all the other feelings if it was not for anxiety and feelings of impending doom oh and anger....i'd be pretty numb sometimes for periods of time....Then it eases up a bit it seems to comes in waves....
Antipsychotics are kind of the "big guns," they tend to have raunchier side effects...
Maybe nothing else was working?
...I'm a big fan of SSRI's. I'm on zoloft and buspirone-they work synergistically.