>>> Hello, Tommy.
>>> I want to tell you a little story about a Hunter.
>>> This Hunter does not kill animals, because she believes that it is not our place to assume that we have control over other living beings just because we are “man”.
>>> This Hunter lives in peace with nature and she has nothing but compassion for even the most vile of creatures on this planet.
>>> She is a being of light and kindness, but don’t think that that means she has not known darkness.
>>> She has seen the depths Hell and she has walked out holding the hand of herself.
>>> She knows how hard it is to feel alone and she knows that even in the dark you aren’t really alone if you can find yourself.
>>> This Hunter was drowning in the shadow of ignorance and somehow found bliss.
>>> While she doesn’t harm the lives of others, that does not mean that she won’t stand for what is right. She stands taller than the highest tree and her shadow brings nothing but shelter from the monsters that roam this earth.
>>> Some monsters can even take the form of loved ones. That way it’s easy for them to trick you into living in their shadow.
>>> Now, their shadows are different than the Hunter’s shadow. Their shadows cause the earth to crack and the sky to bend. In their shadows nothing can grow, nothing can learn, and nothing can ever know true love.
>>> It’s bad for the creatures and beings in the shadows of these monsters, but it’s far worse for the monsters themselves. They know that what they do is wrong and they know that they don’t have to continue, but they have been around so many other monsters that it must be the only way they know.
>>> Now, you might be thinking that it is worse for the monsters because they have not been able to know true love themselves, but that is not the case. It is worse for them because this Hunter is not alone. This Hunter is one of many who share different names and faces. They will not stop moving forward and they will succeed in destroying every monster in existence for that is their purpose and they do it well.
>>> I’m sure that you are aware that I am, in fact, a Hunter.
>>> Not only do I have my mother to thank for the name, but also the sense of justice.
>>> When she took the name Hunter she joined hands with the strongest people I have ever known. She continued by raising three amazing children. She gave them a safe place to grow and learn despite never being shown what that was.
>>> She didn’t need anyone but herself to grow into the warrior she is today. All her existence asked of others was to not try to take it away.
>>> The only good part about this all is that the monster failed. It failed at it all. It didn’t take anything away and it never will.
>>> Something that some people don’t know is that you must give up the title of “father” including “grandfather” the day you decide that you are in any way in control of another life.
>>> Here’s another slightly shorter story.
>>> I used to work at a mental hospital.
>>> One of the glorious things I got to do was meet a man who everyone only referred to as “The General”.
>>> The General was locked up because he murdered six people. He was the very definition of a “serial killer” and the not so exact definition of a “monster”.
>>> The thing I’ve been noticing recently is that I was more comfortable shaking the hand of a serial killer than I was hugging my own grandfather after finding out that he too was a monster by his own definition.
>>> I know that I am not the only one who is standing up to you and the same person who has walked this path before me is also the only reason that I have made it this far in life.
>>> If you ever think for one second that you had anything to do with me or anyone else existing in this world then I just want you to know that the only person you have ever been responsible for has been yourself.
>>> If you think that you have the right to forgive yourself for stealing someone else’s childhood then I guess you’ll just have to forgive yourself for losing two grandchildren, because I won’t.
>>> The world will not become a better place until people like you are told by people like me that it is not okay.
>>> Small acts of valor are like ripples and with time and persistence they become a sea full of waves.
>>> The waves of that sea can and will wipe out anything in their path and right now that’s you.
>>> I won’t let you die thinking that what you did was okay.
>>> I will only come to your funeral to make sure they bury you deep enough.
>>> It may get darker before we finally are able to feel the sun again, but I would rather die than live my life knowing that my family is being forced to live in the shadow of a monster.
>>> I am choosing to stand with my mother and let me tell you, it’s the easiest decision I have ever made.
>>> These will be the last words that are ever bestowed upon you by me.
>>> I would, however, like to just tell you that even through all the absolute shit my mother has seen she still has no words of hate or malice for the monster in her life.
>>> She shines so bright that the sun weeps in the light of her existence.
>>> I intend to follow in her footsteps and say that the only thing I have left for you is the hope that you will one day stand up to your monster even if it is as simple as looking into a mirror.
I have felt monitored for a long time. Fear has been a huge factor in my life since 1999. I have nothing to hide. Yet people feel the need to punish me and trick me. I have had more done to me, than I ever did to anyone else. This is the truth.
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