Incest Survivors Support Group

Incest refers to any sexual activity between closely related persons that is illegal or socially taboo. Consensual adult incest is very rare. Incest between adults and prepubescent or adolescent children is a form of child sexual abuse that has been shown to be one of the most extreme forms of childhood trauma. If you or a loved one is a survivor of incest, join the group...

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theblackrose 02/29/2012

I feel so dead inside, so numb. I've lost everything worth living for. People just take and take and take til there's nothing left.... I just want to disappear for good, leave this awful place. Just Leave. I've never truly lived. I've always just felt dead, like an object. I've been used so much... I've lost my will and tonight I almost lost all hope. I tried to slit my wrists tonight.. I cut open one wrist and then I went a little down my main atery. I was stopped. I'm still mad they stopped me and yet I'm so ashamed. How could I let people get to me like that? Why did I let this happen. Unfortunately I will " live", of course if you could call this living.... I just feel so dead and I wish after 8 times of attempting that I could finish the job... I don't want this anymore.. I don't want this life and I've lost control. I'm sick of being attacked and raped and molested and touched and kissed and just fucking living!! Please, just please..... Why must I feel so much pain all the fucking time, there is no end!! I'm struggling so much... I've lost feeling, I've lost everything...

sbskeeper 02/29/2012

I relate so strongly to how you feel. It is so hard to push past everything that has happened. I know it may be hard but you have got to get out of the environment you are in. Once you are out of the environment you are in you can start thinking a little more clearly. Once you are out of the environment you can slowly start to heal.

I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

deleted_user 03/01/2012

I was once in the same place you are now. My family found me in the bathtub nearly dead. While in the hospital I had time to think about how I would have been dead while my abuser would have still been alive and free to roam the world robbing other people of their innocence. And I got mad. Real mad. I felt like I was letting them win by just quitting. So don't quit sweetie. Don't walk away from life and let someone else have a say in your life. Get mad. Its so much more helpful to let your pain out father than hurting yourself even more.

deleted_user 03/02/2012

You're worth more than this, you're worth more than them. Please, get away, get mad. People are bad to you because they are bad. There is an end. It does get better. These people taught you that you shouldn't love that little girl inside you, but you should love her. She needs your love and she is so longing to love you back if you will let her.

deleted_user 03/02/2012

I've been there too.
You'll come out on the other side...Hard to know what to say but you'll come out on the other side for the better.

When i felt like that i thought nothing would ever change.I really did.YEARS i felt like that.
Very little by little we come through....

hugs.

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