Hello- need to vent here please. I am 24 and dealing with erectile dysfunction for the 3rd time. I was married between 18 and 23 and my ex husband had ED. My current boyfriend is a saint and the kindest most empathetic and good man Ive ever known. He also had ED. It is too painful for me *feeling of "not again!*.
I feel anxiety when I see him because Ive dealt with ED for so long that my brain starts doing back flips when its time "to try" or even the thought of it not working out. I dont want to do it at all. I do feel traumatized and hopeless about this and have considered seeing a sex therapist. But im 24! Im embarrassed. My current boyfriend is a keeper and deeply honest about the problem. I think it is porn induced as the doctor found no medical issues. But I feel so disgusting and unattractive because of this.
A lor of Your posts are talking about problems in your 50s or 60s, im 24 and cant get it at all. I dont thinks toys are the same. I dont know what to do but im depressed and feel a rush of abstract pain in my stomach when i start thinking about it and self loathing. Since ive dealt with this so long, i dont have patience or the empathy needed for the man to feel supported. I just cry and cry and cry quietly in the bathroom. I only can think of how it makes me feel. After a while it affect you too much to think of the other.
At this point i think even if he breaks the porn addiction and can get hard or maintain , i wouldnt want to. Its already left a mark on me and my desire had plummeted out of fear of failure. Not worth the pain. Why me ?? Why so many times?
What do you do when you want to start looking at porn? I have to find some kind of an outlet.
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