In writing here as I feel like this is driving me nuts. I have absolutely no one to speak to about this and its killing me. 

I've known my husband for 6 years prior to marriage and we abstained from sex. I kept away because i didn't want to regret it and decided to wait till marriage. It was only a couple of month before our wedding that we tries having sex and he couldn't get it up. I immediately asked him to see a doctor and he indeed did and was prescribed viagara. 

Wedding was a few months after and its now been 1.5 years. We have only tried having sex during our honeymoon which wasn't successful. It's very hard for him to sustain an erection and he claims he has never had sex before so he spends all his time guessing what he needs to do. Following that he has never ever tried to initiate sex with me. Whenever I ask he would tell me that he isn't hard yet. He would cuddle kiss and all but just unable to sustain an erection. He feels viagra made him sick when he tried and doesn't want to be dependant on it. Doctor has advised him to lose weight because he is overweight now but he has done nothing about it. Every day he eats like it's his last meal and tells me he can't control himself. Whenever I see him eating like this I feel so so so upset that he has no concern about our future and all he thinks about is his own happiness from eating. He tells me that it gives him pleasure and happiness so he can't stop.

I am so disappointed upset hurt and angry. This whirlwind of emotions is making me go crazy. I have so much of anger within me now. To top it off when someone asks when we are going to have a child, he has the cheek to tell them that we will be trying this year when this man is not doing anything about it.

I've begged, cried and shouted myself hoarse asking him to change his habits and see a doctor. He keeps telling me that he does not have a medical problem as confirmed by the doctor once and that he needs to change his lifetstyle. That's all. He then does nothing about it. I workout fairly regularly and when I ask him to join Me, he prefers to watch television or relax away. When I try to make home cooked food, He prefers to eat out. I do not know how else I can support him. He works out for 1 day and eats non stop for the next 3 days.

Now I feel like I'm the one who needs support and help. I feel so lonely in this battle because, of course, none of my family and friends know about it. It's really eating me within myself. All the frustration because of this makes me get so mad during any other arguments because j resent him due to this. 

I even wonder if he is still interested in me cause he has not iniated sex with me since after our honeymoon. When I ask him about this, he keeps talking about the time that we did try which was during our honeymoon. Following that he told me that he don't try because we are both tired -- the thing is he does not even ask me so I do not know where this conclusion came from! And I've even seen him searching for hot pictures of celebrities online. It seems to me that he gets attracted to them but not me. He claims he does not masturbate but I do not know anymore....

I might be the one who needs help due to these issues and all the stress related to it. I feel so relaxed now that I've typed all this out which I've been bottling within me.

Thanks for listening and any help/advise will be sincerely appreciated.