Hypochondria Support Group
Hypochondria refers to excessive worry about having a serious illness. Hypochondria is often characterized by fears that minor bodily symptoms may indicate a serious illness, constant self-examination and self-diagnosis, and a preoccupation with one's body. Many individuals with hypochondriasis express doubt and disbelief in the doctors' diagnosis.
I feel so alone and this makes me want to die but at the same time I'm terrified of dying... people try to help make me feel better but my mind tells me that no matter what anyone says there is a chance they could be wrong and I could be ill with something. I try not to body check so I find myself avoiding my body because once I start looking at my body I can't stop for hours days weeks and then I turn into a crying mess alone feeling like I have no future because I won't be alive to see one. I've been to the doctor so many times my physiatrist and doctor began to communicate because I couldn't stop going to the doctor I can't do this alone any more that's why I joined this group... I struggle like all of you as well and I'm here for all of you too
I can relate I do the same thing get crazy in my head to the point I want relief and when I get in that state I feel alone but yet petrified that I am going to be sick
No matter what reassurance I may get I still think in the back of my mind there is still a tiny chance that they could be wrong -doctors included
I used to go to docs all the time now am the opposite the thought of going gives me horrible anxiety
I feel your pain it sucks !
It takes a strong person to open up and join a support group. You are making steps in the right direction!
You are definitely not alone; I can relate to your story and emotions on a very personal level. There are days where I fear that my chest pains are going to lead me into a heart attack, then there are days that I wish it would just happen already because I am sick of always being afraid! Sometimes this motivates me to get angry enough that I get up and think to myself, "F-you chest pains, and F-you life. I'm going to live and be happy just you try and stop me! If I'm going to have a heart attack, it might ad well be while I am enjoying myself."
I'm not sure if that thought process is healthy or not, but it definitely gets me out of bed for a while.
Anyways, we are all here for you, and we seem to have pretty similar experiences. As much as these experiences suck, at least we are not alone, right?
I had a cardiologist convince me that my very slow pulse and heart flutters were nothing to worry about and that I could exercise all I wanted... I remember jogging and sprinting that night trying to make my heart stop.. I felt great taking that F-you attitude! And I obviously did not die!
I am currently trying to tell my random muscle twitches to go F-themselves. "C'mon...I dare you to keep twitching!"