Hey everyone Im new to the site. I feel as though I have always had a bit of anxiety but over the last few years it has gotten out of control. I lost my father back in 2014 from cancer. He was first diagnosed in 2006 with kidney cancer, had his kidney removed and was in remission until 2014 when it moved to his lungs and brain. I often wonder if being a hypochondriac is genetic. Before my father became ill he always used to google everything from a cold to a simple headache. I thought he was nuts and it only got worse after he found out he had cancer. I was fine until two years ago when I broke my ankle and had to get surgery. I literally lost my mind. The day of my surgery I was a disaster they had to give me medication just to calm me down. I literally sat and watched the tube of my IV to make sure there werent any air bubbles. I came home later the same day and the hypochodriac in me just took over.  I was in the ER twice within a few weeks due to my anxiety and I thought I was dying. Ever since then anytime I get sick I think I am dying. A couple months after I broke my ankle I decided to see a therapist and it helped me out quite a bit. I was under a lot of stress at the time due to being in school for my bachelors, working and completing hours at my internship. Once I graudated and started grad school a few months later I stopped seeing my therapist because I just didnt have the time and ever since then my complusive thoughts have slowly been creeping back. I am a therapist myself working with the addiction population and I often laugh at myself because I sit and talk with others on a daily basis and try to help them with their issues but I cant even get myself under control. I recently got married in October and have a great husband who tries to understand my issues and insists on trying to help when I know deep down he cannot because he just doesnt get it. So here we are today. I spent my weekend holed up in my apartment googling stomach issues. Within the matter of minutes I diagnosed myself with ovarian cancer, diverticulitis, bowel obstruction and gallbladder issues. I know that anxiety only makes situations worse and its not helping my situation in the least bit but I just cannot help it.