HPV Support Group
Human papillomavirus is a diverse group of DNA-based viruses that infect the skin and mucous membranes of humans. More than 100 different human papillomavirus (HPV) types have been characterized. Some HPV types cause benign skin warts, or papillomas, for which the virus family is named. HPVs associated with the development of such "common warts" are transmitted...
I have had a nonstop outbreak now for 4 months, and I was just diagnosed in August 2014. The longest I've gone without a wart within this 4 month time has been maybe a day and that's only been once or twice. I can't kick it. I can't get it to stop. I have had so many hysterical meltdowns. Starting a new relationship and 3 months into it discovering I have this, and after 2 months of occasional break outs I am now going on a 4 month stretch that won't quit. We haven't had sex the entire stretch of this and it is putting a horrible strain on the relationship. I'm walking around dead inside because I've taken every measure I've read people have used on here, with no luck. I'm back on the condylox from the doctor and while it's treating the warts, they won't stop spreading. I have done EVERYTHING. I am going absolutely mad. My doctor can't even believe I'm still having a nonstop outbreak. She is awful. Still has terrible bedside manner. Still offers no other solution or counseling. I'm losing it. I hate being here. I'm so angry every single day. I can't relax.
I haven't had a single moment of relief to even have sex with my boyfriend ONCE just to calm both of us the hell down. I am absolutely miserable. It just won't stop. It's not right, It's not as if I'm having 1 outbreak a month. It's been every single day for 4 months. I don't smoke anymore, I quit months ago when I was told to. I take so many immune boosting vitamins, it's like a full meal itself. NOTHING is working and I can't find anywhere else to talk to.
Why won't this stop? Why can't I have a moments rest where I don't have them there? This is purely maddening on a persons life. I can't have a sexual relationship at ALL. I'm only 31 come february. 31 with a brand new relationship that the majority of it has been abstinent because of this awful hell. I'm miserable. I have no support anywhere. My boyfriend tries but he doesn't understand what I'm going through and this situation is starting to take a toll on him. I'm completely alone. Posting here has only been mildly successful but that isn't stopping this outbreak. I cannot live like this. I have gone from a lively happy person who loved everything to a miserable angry shell of human who has distanced herself from everyone and everything.
Why won't it stop.
I haven't had a single moment of relief to even have sex with my boyfriend ONCE just to calm both of us the hell down. I am absolutely miserable. It just won't stop. It's not right, It's not as if I'm having 1 outbreak a month. It's been every single day for 4 months. I don't smoke anymore, I quit months ago when I was told to. I take so many immune boosting vitamins, it's like a full meal itself. NOTHING is working and I can't find anywhere else to talk to.
Why won't this stop? Why can't I have a moments rest where I don't have them there? This is purely maddening on a persons life. I can't have a sexual relationship at ALL. I'm only 31 come february. 31 with a brand new relationship that the majority of it has been abstinent because of this awful hell. I'm miserable. I have no support anywhere. My boyfriend tries but he doesn't understand what I'm going through and this situation is starting to take a toll on him. I'm completely alone. Posting here has only been mildly successful but that isn't stopping this outbreak. I cannot live like this. I have gone from a lively happy person who loved everything to a miserable angry shell of human who has distanced herself from everyone and everything.
Why won't it stop.
I just started vitamins and still need to change my lifestyle to see if that helps. You think with all the negativity that comes along with GW, that I would have started making changes a long time ago. But I am really having trouble with it. I think I may subconsciously be worried it won't help anyway, so why go through all the trouble?
So disappointing.
My recommendations are to find another service provider if yours isn't supportive, that alone should ease some of your stress. Second, try a different treatment - I had wonderful luck with TCA - the acid treatment. I liked it because it was painless for me, physically removed them, and seemed to jump start my immune system and caused the rest to clear up. Everyone is so quick to jump for a magic pill to cure everything - our bodies our the best weapon we have. I started with diet, quitting alcohol, vitamins, exercise and then went to medication. I think it made all of the difference. Lastly, and most importantly, find a mental health professional ASAP. If you don't have health insurance or can't go to one, find a local church, etc. with free counseling. You NEED a support system and you need to talk it out with someone other than your boyfriend.
Hang in there and don't give up, I dealt with them consistently for 8 months before they subsided, i know it feels like forever, but in the grand scheme of things 4 months is actually not a relatively long time at all for your body to heal something like this - support it in the ways you can such as health, less stress, exercise and try different treatment options. Stay strong!
Since it seems we are in almost the same boat not getting a break let me know if you have any interest in chatting off the board - even if you just need someone else to meltdown with.
On a side note, the last couple if weeks (I just finished week 5) haven't caused itching at all. I have found that if I sleep on my side with my knees together (rather than on my belly with one leg out), it cuts down on the irritation immensely. I highly recommend Aldara.
As for me I'm in the process of clearing a bad case of anal warts. I didn't know I had them because they were all on the inside and I only noticed it when they started to spread to the outside. I had surgery last night and wow... never felt such pain. But a month later I am doing much better. There are still a few on the outside and I have to get a touch up on the inside in the office for a few stray ones but overall I see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I have a feeling you are over-stressing because of your relationship. Odds are your partner already has the virus but he doesn't have warts. That's the case w/ mine. No partner of mine has ever had warts. I was going through a *very* stressful event when mine started so I'm certain that stress is a huge factor in this. Most people have this virus, or had it at one time and cleared it. Time is on your side. You need to realize this is only 4 months out of your whole life and the odds are it will go away. Just stay positive and try to live your life. Find ways to play w/ your bf if you want to stay safe but honestly if you are in a committed relationship, it's normal for a couple to just keep having sex since they both already have it as long as it isn't directly rubbing/irritating the warts itself too much.