Understand this feeling way too well, lucky for me I lived out in the country so there was more than once I let it loose. Gave me a headache but felt better afterward. 8 years later I am not screaming but still get panicked and claustrophobic on occasion ! Bonnie

Oh my.... I actually went to the cemetery. Screamed, jumped, just threw a fit!!! Until I was wore out! Then I crumpled to the ground a cried for hours, it was such a release. I am so glad there are no houses around there, off a highway, in the country. I got up, brushed myself off, got in my car, went home, took a shower, applied makeup, and was so much better after that. Sandee

I'd say you have very good reason to scream dcheramie! FYI the men w/butterfly nets probably won't come after you because there are just too many of us to catch! I don't think there are enough padded rooms to accommodate all of us! Scream away....maybe we can form a chorus! LOL

The mental hospital in my area has a waiting list. S

Grief accumulate lots of suppressed energy, that is why finding the way letting it out is important and healthy.
I have done plenty of those roaring "releases" in my house at the beginning stage, scaring my neighbors to death.
Luckily I later learned to channel it into lots of physical activities - it looks more normal screaming hitting the tennis ball full force. I sing very load when I need to get rid of some pressure, and I dance Zumba just to get my body totally tired.
Suppressed for a long time it can jump out unexpectedly; plan for the time and place to get it done, because it needs to be done.
Big hug

I can only imagine there were a few times i *had* to have concerned my neighbors at the very least with some pretty loud screams..

I like the chorus idea :)

Sometimes coming home to an empty place (my cat died three months before my partner), I feel a scream coming but have mentioned to squelch it. Glad I'm not the only one!!

Whoops! I feel a scream coming but have managed to squelch it!

I channel my pent up emotions to either singing loud by myself (I can't carry a tune) or working out at the gym.
The anxiety can get the best of me if I don't keep a handle on it:

-Look around you.
-Find 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste.
This is called grounding. It can help when you feel like you lost all control of your surroundings.

Stay strong, Hugs, Sandi

Oh, I screamed... A LOT... and I broke plates, cups, pictures, CD's, kicked a hole in a door, kicked the car (nearly broke my toe). I went for two hour walks until my ankles almost gave out; two hour bike rides until my butt ached from the seat.
I toyed with the idea of buying a punching bag and gloves at one point.
I did try working out, until my heart problems were taking hold. Strangely, since the heart attack, I'm feeling more peaceful. Not sure why.
I wrote a lot of letters to people with a lot of very foul language, which I later burned.
I think we've all been there, or if we haven't, it may be coming!
One important thing I learned - let it out! If you don't, it festers, and may 'leak out' at inappropriate times, against the wrong people.
I like Sandi's suggestions too.

Hmm..I'm not sure Sandi's suggestions will work for me, although i did have a few crumple to the ground type of cry sessions last week

I just dont think I know what makeup to put on after a good scream ; I dont know if i am a "spring" "summer" "autumn" or "winter" :)

Ok, I can see you're getting better, dear heart- your joke about the make up was cute. I think you're a winter - go for jewel tones, but no robins egg blue eyeshadow, ok? ;)

Maybe i can use the blue if i feather my hair back

LMAO, ummmm, no. Though the thought of you dolling up like Mimi in the Drew Carey Show is funny - would be great for a laugh. Have a terrific day, my friend.

I did this "Transformational Breathing" as part of my grief recovery therapy. During the sessions, all of these emotions which WE swallow down and suppress come to the surface as loud, sobbing cries. When this would start happening the "guide" would have you beat your hands and feet on the floor as hard as you could, while crying hysterically, in order to move the emotions out of your body and release them. You can't imagine how great that felt (afterwards), looked really funny, but man was it healthy. So see, you aren't crazy for wanting to scream, you just need an outlet for your emotions which have built to a boiling point. Scream! Scream loud and scream proud, you've earned it.