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dezza13 02/03/2011

I am not very good at the minute. I just keep worrying and worrying that I am a lesbian and that I will never be married and secretly, I love girl and I just haven't realised it yet. I am just so scared. The thought I might be gay is horrible and I just want to be normal like everyone else. Please don't tell me I might be gay. I feel suicidal. I just want someone to love me and I can imagine myself with a girl and a boy but I don't want to be with a girl. I don't like the look of dicks. Sometimes I think it would be more familiar to be with a girl but I just want to be like everyone else. I am so worried that I am gay....Please help me x x

deleted_user 02/21/2011

You are not gay. You have HOCD. That is why you are seeking help. Believe in yourself and see the help of a professional. You need to talk to a therapist and possibly see a psychiatrist to give you some medication. I am on 3 different meds to help me. I have struggled with this since I was 18 on and off and I am now 41. Since I got on meds and faced my fears this time through I can honestly say I am almost back to my old self. Not sure after being through something like this you can actually return to exactly how you used to be, but you sure can get close. I faced all of my fears with a counselor and got meds from a psychologist. I was referred by my MD. Go and seek some professional help. Suicide is NOT the answer, you can get through this! I did, you can...

deleted_user 03/07/2011

Let me know if I can help.

Have you opened up to anyone yet? I do agree with elizamon11 that seeking help from a professional is a wise step.

Are you taking any medications?

-Andy

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