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The highly sensitive person (or HSP) is someone who cares deeply about everything ... feels emotions with great intensity ... is highly conscientious ... has a rich and complex inner life ... is very intuitive ... is often creative in a variety of ways... is easily overwhelmed and/or overstimulated. A HSP needs lots of quiet time,space, and freedom. If this sounds...
This always seems to happen when change hits...my system gets overwhelmed. I brace myself for it and maybe this makes it worse because I build it up in my mind. I battle with thoughts that I can't handle the new change and that I will have no choice but to back down from it and revert to my old way--in this case it's my new job. I am struggling with the new schedule and its effects on my body and mind. I am already a sensitive sleeper, but now I have become even more sensitive, struggling with insomnia. The less well I sleep, the more I worry about it. The more sleep I loose, the more I worry that I need to catch up on even more sleep. I have been feeling weak and drained lately. I think part of this is because I was told that I can no longer be on my Chinese herbs that were helping me so much with anxiety, etc. because of the fact that I have been trying to get pregnant. I have decided to put this off for three months and just focus on my new job and trying to get used to the strange schedule and the shift work aspect of it. During this time, I still want to take my Chinese herbs.
The less rest I get, the more I seem to loose confidence in myself and the more overwhelming everything seems. Part of me thinks I should have just stayed at my old job even though I was unhappy there--since I am bracing myself for two more huge changes already mentioned.
At my new job, things can get really hectic since I work in the Emergency Room. Sometimes, I find myself surround by so many other doctors that my stomach ties up in knots and I feel like its hard to breathe. All the doctors need to speak with the attending physician and so do I and there's many things going on at once. At other times, I worry that I take on the energy of the patients I help. Yesterday, for example, I found myself really empathizing with a woman who was suffering from depression and could not get out of bed and had come to the hospital as a last resort. After speaking with her, I felt this sense of heaviness in my body. I have read about ways to protect my own energy and I even practice one of the ways, but I am not sure if it is really helping that much.
The less rest I get, the more I seem to loose confidence in myself and the more overwhelming everything seems. Part of me thinks I should have just stayed at my old job even though I was unhappy there--since I am bracing myself for two more huge changes already mentioned.
At my new job, things can get really hectic since I work in the Emergency Room. Sometimes, I find myself surround by so many other doctors that my stomach ties up in knots and I feel like its hard to breathe. All the doctors need to speak with the attending physician and so do I and there's many things going on at once. At other times, I worry that I take on the energy of the patients I help. Yesterday, for example, I found myself really empathizing with a woman who was suffering from depression and could not get out of bed and had come to the hospital as a last resort. After speaking with her, I felt this sense of heaviness in my body. I have read about ways to protect my own energy and I even practice one of the ways, but I am not sure if it is really helping that much.
Hugs..
It is difficult to break free from conditioning and I realize that this can take time and I need to be more patient with myself. I am definitely too hard on myself and compare myself to others.
Thank you for your words of encouragement and for understanding so well. Yes, I think that keeping in touch with my inner world will be key. I always do best when I have the time to meditate, do yoga, and just be alone. Now it seems overwhelming because I have not felt I have the time for these things anymore.
Things feel more complicated because of my age and feeling like my clock is ticking. But it makes sense to micro manage things now.
Sometimes I wish I could have accomplished things sooner in my life, but it is what it is.
I am hoping I will feel more confident in a few months. Sometimes, I get flare-ups ouf of nowhere where I suddenly feel stressed again and there seems to be no good reason why. But I can't worry about whether or not this will happen in the future with work.
Thanks for reminding me to slow down a bit.
It's about how we can gain self confidence through body posture. The results are pretty remarkable.
As to the empathy issue, I had a teacher who helped me with that. She said to imagine the client as wearing a sweater and empathy is trying that sweater on. But then give it back to them - it is theirs, not yours. That visualization always helped.
Hoping things work out for you.
I like the suggestion about the sweater. Never heard of it before, but will give it a try.