Hidradenitis Suppurativa Support Group
Hidradenitis suppurativa (hi-drad-uh-NIE-tis sup-yoo-ruh-TIE-vuh) is rare, long-term skin condition that features small, painful lumps under the skin. The disease manifests as clusters of chronic abscesses or boils, sometimes as large as baseballs, that are extremely painful to the touch and may persist for years with occasional to frequent periods of inflammation,...
Hi im 18 and ive had HS since I was 12, i live with my boyfriend and weve been together for 6 months now, i havent let him see my vagina with my legs open and always turn the lights off. He just thinks im self concious he already makes fun of the shape of my vagina being really fat and my lips look like a square and not a triangle from scaring he always pulls and makes a shape of normal girls but thats nothing compared to insdie my legs . Im scared that if he will see he will be discusted and ill loose him or tell people, i also suffer from autism which makes it harder to deal with on my own. I new i couldnt have relationships but Im inlove and afraid to be alone and live alone i dont have parents hes all i have. Hes 5 years older then me and im worried if I told him or he seen he would cheat on me or leave or make fun of me or my worse fear tell everyone and id probably kill myself. Please can anyone give me some advice
There are no “normal” girls. Just a bunch of variety that doesn’f get shown in porn or medical text books as much as should. Check out the Vulva Gallery on instagram for art and stories about vulva diversity. https://www.instagram.com/the.vulva.gallery/
If he loves you, he will work to understand you as a neuroAtypical and accept your body. If you feel really lost and lonely, you might consider finding a meeting for Codependents Anonymous. It’s for people who are addicted to relationships or who can’t stand being alone. Even if you don’t identify in this way, it can be really comforting to attend a meeting (you won’t have to share) and just be around other people who are struggling with relationships, too, and to hear their stories.
I hope you find some courage and relief.
A) He's being a dick and making comments that get to you
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B) You have a chronic, painful, inflammatory skin condition that you have no control over.
If he continues to be a dick don't wait around for change.
And if your worst fears come true and he tells people about it ya know you will have seen his peen too? Think of the possibilities