I've been clean for a long time but lately over the last 3 years or so and since my boyfriend went back to using a year and a half ago, I have had strong urges come over me. So far I've stuck it out but I just feel like getting enough to kill myself. It's so insane. I know I will be happy like in 2 weeks but sometimes the urge goes on and on. I broke up with my boyfriend. He gets clean and then uses again etc. I don't even live near him now. It's a good thing. Heroine is not easily in my grasp so then I start thinking about hard booze. It's like I'm hell bent on suicide. Anyone relate? Or suggestions?
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