Heroin Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Heroin is a highly addictive drug with severe withdrawal symptoms that can start as soon as hours after use of the drug stops. Withdrawal symptoms include extreme sweating and achiness, nausea, vomiting, cramping which causes "kicking," chills, and more. If you are struggling with a heroin addiction, there is help. Join the group and get support.

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LornaR 10/12/2009

I've been clean for a long time but lately over the last 3 years or so and since my boyfriend went back to using a year and a half ago, I have had strong urges come over me. So far I've stuck it out but I just feel like getting enough to kill myself. It's so insane. I know I will be happy like in 2 weeks but sometimes the urge goes on and on. I broke up with my boyfriend. He gets clean and then uses again etc. I don't even live near him now. It's a good thing. Heroine is not easily in my grasp so then I start thinking about hard booze. It's like I'm hell bent on suicide. Anyone relate? Or suggestions?

deleted_user 10/12/2009

It's not worth it. let it pass. I struggled for years and now I struggle with liver disease and feel even worse everyday then I ever did.

LornaR 10/12/2009

It's not worth it, this much I know. Letting it pass is taking forever this time. Addiction really sucks.
Bless you Josh and thanks for your reply. I'm going to hang in there. It makes me cry because my head is saying "what for?" A big fucking lie! The sun will shine again. I've been clean long enough to KNOW this. Awe... some relief, just filled my soul.
Bless you again.

deleted_user 10/12/2009

Do you work a 12 step program - AA or NA - if so, do you have a sponsor? Getting around people in the program and talking with your sponsor will help. If you aren't in AA or NA, perhaps giving one or both a try will help. I know how difficult it is when you get the thoughts and they swim around in your brain, until you want to go crazy. Maybe if you find a hobby or something that will get your mind off using, it will help get over the hump. I know it isn't easy once the thought of using gets in your head, you need to do whatever it takes to stay clean - because if you relapse you will be kicking the shit out of yourself for using. Stay strong and keep the faith.

deleted_user 10/13/2009

OMG THE STORY OF MY LIFE! you gotta have a higher power. ppl let you down but god never will....my husband overdosed and died nov 3 last year, i thought he was just oput on a long binge when in actuality he was in a morg with a toe tag on....keep around pos. ppl and DONT DRINK...when i get drunk i want crack and dope. dont do it i swear! HIT ME UP ANYTIME...

deleted_user 10/14/2009

So glad your talking about it vs the alternative. Keep doing that, and if your in the program start talking face to face, and for me working with others always works..oh and eating..lol never got high unless on a empty stomach it really does help the urges.

LornaR 10/14/2009

Thanks everybody. I have been in AA and NA for a long time. I haven't used in 21 years. I love these programs. They are my life. I still have to work it and then some. You know what I mean? Oh and I have a sponsor and I still go to meetings every day. And I work with others too. I highly recommend it. I'd be dead a long time ago and perhaps responsible for the death of others. I'm hanging in there. Sometimes it's all I can do.

deleted_user 10/21/2009

Dont do it... Pray and let God guide you. My husband just relapsed and it is the most hurtful and saddest thing. While you are high you dont feel anything but your loved ones are in agonizig pain all the time just thinking about you. Dont put them trough anymore pain, take it from someone who knows.

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