Well sweety, I too am a heroin, meth and take daily doses of methadone. If he could pick up and leave you, then maybe you should do the same. Are you still using now ? What about your kids?. That's his kid. What about yours ?. Don't you think they want they're mom?. The reason why I say all that is because. My mom is a heroin, meth and methadone user just like me. She has been for 28 years now. I have been using heroin for 5 years. We get high together. But I'm 35 years old now and when I was young, I never , ever saw her. So because of that I grew up to hate my mom. She always put me and my older brother behind her drug use and her friends. I saw my mom once every three months and when ever that was I still didn't even get to spend time with her because she was nodding out. I couldn't keep her awake or focused on me. And I wanted that attention from her so bad. But since I didn't get it when I really needed it, I resent her a lot. We started using together about a little less then two years ago. Because she found out I was using cause I was dope sick. So was she, so we put our money together and you know. And since then we found our bond but is also the reason for all of our arguments too. My mom wasn't even there for me when I got my first period. I had to learn what to do from a stranger. But ,,, I grew up hating her because she chose dope over me. Don't let your kids feel that same way about you. And obviously, if he could leave like that most likely he's with another bitch. So if he don't care about you enough to not cheat, to not leave without saying something or to give you a phone call. Then he just doesn't care about you. Move on. Hi's family knows him best, his mom says he loves the dope more then anything,. Well, there you go, until he gets sober, your just not as good as the high is. Or he's not attached and sprung off of you like he is with heroin. Just go home, go see your own babies. Your gonna regret it later on life and your kids are gonna grow up to wish you did too. And plus, what's one year compared to the children that you carried inside of you.? One year ain't shit to the labor pains that you had to deal with. Go get your babies. Go make them happy. Good luck to you keep us posted.

Hi crystalara. I was checking in on you and wondering how things were with you. I hope your with your babies. I understand your boyfriends daughter is as attached to you as you are to her. But your not dropping her. You can still have her in your life but your kids need you more. Good luck. Your in my thoughts.

2 weeks ago i lost a friend that was like my daughter to heroin .she was married to a user she was too but got clean for 4 years but hubby was still using . he didnt work cant drive they would stay in the room all day and night .she would get the pills heroin what every he wanted .she would work to get his stuff hes is on ssd and uses the money for drugs .i can only say she died because she loved him so much and now she is at peace because she dont have to do anything for him .she was only 35 years old . if your not using and trying to get clean focus on you and the kids .NOT HIM AND THE SO CALLED FRIENDS YOU HAVE ..STOP AND LIVE FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY .love april