Don't feel guilty or like a loser.......This poison also poisons our minds. U did the right thing...when u feel like throwing in the towel...come here!!! In the grand scheme of things, when u look back at this "possible year" in ur 80's, it's NOT that long and when u r SVR.... u r giving not only urself a gift but all ur friends and family.
I was the same way, when I was "down" feeling sick,,,,, I was down for days.... My body lost it's natural immune system as we all do. SO chin up..... thank ur lucky stars u have gotten this far...and don't lose sight of the prize. (if u ever want to read a pathetic story, read MY journal... I was a total mess) Cry if u want to cry, hit a few pillows and tomorrow will be another day! U have earned that right! I had a mini-riba bitch fest going on in my mind almost daily.... How did I get over it an on w/tx? I came HERE... many of us have been there, done that and are here to encourage those on tx now..... Try to turn on comedy central or watch funny you tube clips.... u CAN pull the laughter out even when u feel like crap. I won't tell u to pull up ur big girl panties..cuz tx is hell for a lot of us................I was on anti-D's and also temazepam and seroquil for sleep, but it did not come easily~ My body became run down as my doc did NOT believe in rescue drugs.... It is what it is...u chose tx..... and if u ever feel like "just living out ur days happy".... go to a hospital or the cirrhosis group and see "how happy" those folks are...............Many of us kinda feel sorry for ourselves...as there is NO ONE in our personal lives that truly understand what we go thru..... So, just for good luck, Bend over cuz I am just giving u a lil kick in the ass to get u focused on why u r doing this!! Just roll with it, the more u protest, the worse u will feel.
This is what we are here for, to get each other thru HCV issues..... Now go find some funny videos on ur laptop!! Here's one to start u off.... There is a series of about 20 videos of "talking kitty"! NJoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHqJ12RfHkc

It will most likely be the hardest thing you have had to do. Remember that and focus on the weeks behind you. Best of luck and hang with us here, misery loves company lol jk

First of all, (((BIG HUGS))).... This treatment business is tough stuff for sure. And just like Carolann said- it poisons your mind and your body. You are doing great- I know you don't feel like it right now, but you are!

Is there possibly a medical explaination for why you are feeling so bad? Are you running fever, or maybe having another symptom that could point to some type of infection? Either way, please call your doctor's office and tell them what is going on. It could be as simple as upping your dosage of antidepressants (I had to do that at about 16 weeks), or adding another one.
A good friend I met here on DS told me there is no reason to suffer more than what is truly necessary while doing this treatment- and it's true!!!!

Please be kind to yourself- this crap is hard enough on it's own!!

I have already uped my dosage twice!!! i fell like i am going to od with all the pills i take.

It's okay- call the doc. Tell them what's going on, and that maybe this A/D isn't working the way it should... There are LOTS to choose from, so they should be able to help you...

Yea, it's ok.... Sometimes u have to try a few different ones to find one that helps...

If I took the amount of anti-d's and sleep aids NOW, like I did on tx....I'd be really scared I'd od....But on tx, I barely noticed a difference.
Call ur doc.....
I haven't felt that well since Friday, which makes me realize...1 1/2 yrs post tx, my immune system is not what it used to be.
Ur doc won't put you on something that would make u OD..... What are you taking? I forgot to add, I also had ativan for panic attacks.... Enuf to tranquilize an elephant if I took them now!! lol

Bestshot

The reason I stuck thru it was get the undie report. And hopefully in 6 weeks an SVR report. That's the gold ring and unfortunately the price you pay to get it is incredibly high

In the stupidity realm, you put up a post a few minutes ago that someone send you a personal message asking about sex. Isn't it nice that someone desires you? Yeah sure, it would be nicer if you knew the person and he wasn't a pervert, but it's still nice to be loved :)

oh joe ..lmfao. girl feels like she's dying, not the right time I'd say but good attempt and looking at the positive :-)

Bestshot, I agree that your situation should be shared with your doctor. The more we all share with them the more they understand our collective plight and it helps those treating after us. I've been very vocal regarding my experience and my team has been able to support me more consequently. You can likely feel better than this with a change in your ADs or with a new look at your bloodwork to see if there's any intervention available. Keep posting here as many truly do care and will want to support you.

sweet heart i know how u feel exactly.....i'm a man and tx. made me cry...but it want last forever,,u keep seeing u're dr. and take 1 day at a time...god bless u...............

I'm so sorry you are going through this...everyone here has givin you some good advice............and hopefully this will pass soon.

Please take a minute to watch Carolann's video in post #1............it should bring a smile to your face:):)

We're all rooting for you:):):) Hang in there honey................

Everyone has given me some ggod advise and i will be taking it all into consideration. i don't know what I would do without this group of amazing people. If I ever win the Loto I am going to personally send everyone to were ever we can all decide on and we will have the party of our lives!!!! All on me of course. Nice to dream huh? But, this is a promise. I would not have even made it this far without you all.
xoxoxo
Debbie
P.S. I changed my pic now. Hope that helps to keep the creeps at bay.

Hey, Bestshot... I don't get on here much at the present time. But wanted you to know that you are cared about. Here are some really wonderful people here. You as well. Sux that you are so down in the dumps, but it won't be forever. Please talk to your doc. May just need some tweaking.

Deep breath. Take it easy on yourself. You are the most special you that you can be... :)

Hugs...

((((((((((((((Hugs for you bestshot)))))))))))))
We all can totally relate. At week 8, I DID NOT want, WOULD NOT do my shot....until I came here and all these great people talked me into it. Some kicked my butt, some hugged me, some talk some sense into me. Bottom line was that I did the 8th shot and haven't looked back since.

So now I've already given you hugs, now kicking your butt, and saying honey, you have come so far, we all know you can do it! You're strong. Now pull up your BIG girl panties and onward you go. Remember, the worse you feel, the virus feels 100 times worse than you because it actually IS dying.

I also agree about calling the doc. Sounds like you're not on the right AD's and he/she can get you some that will work for you.
Love ya,
Kelly

Everybody answer Kelly (bestshot) I havent been where she is yall have.