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First off this post may be offensive to others or maybe not in the right group. But, I really do need all the help I can get right now and this is the only group I feel comfortable enough to post on. That being said, I really have myself in a state. I'm going to go right to the point because all the other shit doesn't matter. I am addicted to oxycoden (spelling does not matter to me at this point). I have been taking it for a few years now and at first is was for pain related matters. When I went on treatment I found it really helped with a lot of the sides and the intake went up significantly. Now off treatment and it has gotten even worse. On a good day I take about 8 bad day 12 to 15 even up to about 18. I know I have a problem and admit it, so you don't have to tell me "admitting it is the first step". | can literally feel my body and mind breaking down. I blamed it on the hep c for the longest time (which has some merit to it) but I know most of this shit is from the pills. I am very scared and don't know how to start. I have been on the web all morning trying to figure out where to start. I feel I need to detox right away. Lots of problems doing this, starting with were to go, my husband, work ect.....I don't think I am suicidal but who really knows, I do know I want to get better!!!!! One problem is in Feb. the elevator at my work is going to be down for about 4-5 weeks. I work on the fourth floor and at this point can hardly make it to the second. The pain in my knees is excruciating so I need pain meds for it!!!!!! Another problem is my husband, although supportive and he knows all about this he tells me to just stop or ween myself off. Well, it's not that easy!!!! I try to explain this to him and he just doesn't get it. So then we start to fight!!! Fuck this is all I need at this point. Work, another problem. I think this is self explanatory. Thirteen years ago I took a leave of absence from work to go to rehab for another addiction. Kicked that bad habit!!! But don't think they will be so understanding this time around. I have taken so much time off as it is due to the "tx". I am putting my job at jeopardy as it is just by taking to day off. Although I do have a dr.'s note. I have already taken 6 today and it is just past noon were I am. Sometimes I will taken a substitute such as gravol or lorazapam thinking this is a better option. How fucked it that? The lorazapam is a whole other problem!!! I know, I know I'm probably rambling, but I am trying to get as much out as possible before I say fuck it. I also have all these "sub addiction" which I think all are connected such as, sugar, tea, cigarettes ( never have smoked so much in my life), chocolate and on line shopping. OK I am starting to feel extremely overwhelmed right now. There is so much more I could add to this but I feel if I don't stop now nobody will take the time to read this!!!! Oh one more thing I did go to the dr. yesterday about this and other shit. He is willing to help me ( he is not the dr. that prescribed all this shit, that is a whole other story) he gave me a script I had it filled came home checked it out online only to find that it says "anyone who has an allergy to sulpha based meds should not be taking this". Well guess what I have an allergy to Sulpha!!!! What the hell is that!!!!!!! So, I definatley have some trust issues here. OK.... that's it. All I have left to say is "PLEASE PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!
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Debbie
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Debbie
I never took it for, nor experienced and euphoria from it.
I am no longer having back pain. I am now "tweaked" to have some level of oxy in my system
My Dr. is suggesting even going to 1/2 a pill for a few weeks.
Try weaning off very very slowly over a few weeks and months.
Good luck with it (to think this stuff is legal blows me away).
Someone more qualified can perhaps give you advice.
Hugs, peace and love!
In some ways "I am" in your shoes and in other ways "I used to be" in your shoes. Either way, there are several things that may help. Chronic pain is a hole unto itself. I have been dealing with this crap for nearly ten years. It is life changing to put it mildly. I had a very physical job until I finally gave up and stopped working due largely to the opiates I had to take just to stay on my feet. This was a work related injury. I've been on workers disability and SS disability for 2.5 years now. My neck just keeps getting worse.
I'm a recovering addict with 24 years clean. I was more into coke and stimulants, but I did my share of everything.
In reading your post, my advice would be an old recovery saying: "First things first." Meaning that you need to start with the oxy problem first. Deal with the job, husband and everything else as you can. If you try to tackle them all at once you will surely fail.
You may very well benefit from medically supervised detox to help you get through the early days. I would also suggest finding a local support group for people who have been in your shoes. You are not alone, others have gone through this before. Feel free to ping me if you want to know more of my story.
Bob
I am so sorry that you are having to go through this, but you should be proud that you are reaching out for help.
Nancy
Much Love and prayers Debbie
Bill
When you lessen your pain meds, you'll have more energy & feel better about things.
Once you decide how & when to start, determine to stick to it & do it. You do sound motivated enough. I wish you the best Deb.
Weaning...... Weaning...... Weaning..... sugar, cigarettes, all of it. Online shopping? That sounds expensive. How about crossword puzzles, reading, cleaning a closet... ? Something(s) to occupy your mind & hands.
xoxo Debbie
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Good luck Debbie my prayers are with you and I hope you chose to seek help. Sending Love and Hugs your way.
blanche
This opiate/opioid thing is the biggest racket ever. Back in the day we bought dope on the street. It's amazing how pharma co-opted that market, and create a nation of addicts.
Debbie, I am very sorry and I can certainly relate to addiction issues. I believe there is more than one path to getting off drugs. I've given up many, many things on my own. I never had the luxury of going to rehab. I wanted to once but my insurance didn't cover it and I couldn't afford it.
Wishing you the discipline and determination to get off them...