Hello everyone, 

I am new to this group, but I have been struggling with this issue for A LONG time now. The story begins like this: After about two years of dating, I caught my current boyfriend "facebook stalking" his ex-finance. When I confronted him about it, he pretended like he did not know what I was talking about, but I knew it was true because I seen it in his phone history. I was so hurt, that I was numb, and the only words I could manage to get out were "Why, is there something wrong with me?", I will never forget what he said after that, he said " I miss her." What is even worse is that I found he was watching "chubby porn" and his ex was a bigger girl in the history right after he was scoping her out on facebook. I have not found a way to forgive him yet, and I constantly wonder if he wants to be with her and if he talks to her. It has been 3 years since this happened, but it constantly affects me to the point that I sit in my office and cry about it at least twice a month. Furthermore, he told me that it only took him 6 months to propose to her, but has not even mentioned the thought of marriage to me. I have a lot of problems with being sexual with him because I think well, he is probably thinking about her. It makes me feel very inadequate and not attractive at all. If anyone has any advice on how to deal with this situation, I would sure appreciate it..

Thanks,

-A