As many of you know, I have been a poor deprived soul for years. I was only with 2 other men before hubby (both fwbs ... all 3 were 5 minute men.) Then hubby shut down after just 5 years of a 17 yr marriage. So I have been going more than 12 years with no sex and a growing ache to want to explore and discover even a little glimmer of what I have missed.
I am trying to figure this out. You all know my incredible curiosity and sometimes too bold mouth as I have no TMI anymore (I forget others still do) Forgive me if this sounds stupid or something I should not be bringing up, but I really am trying to figure this out. Everyone says go out there and have fun.... but be safe. My boss did say it is like an all you can eat buffet... go out and try em all... then just go back for what you like. (I am not that curious or bad off.lol)
SAFE will be with condoms which suck (but they tell me now there are some very thin and do feel close to the real thing) but I have missed out on oral. Have done it for others, would just like to be lucky enough to be on the receiving end just once (to see what I have missed out on.) Have no clue how that can be done "safely"? You have no clue how hard it is to be thinking I will spend my entire life missing out on something else ...
Cannot tell you how great it would feel skin on skin.... exploding together...licking and sucking....
Why am I so eager if I cannot really enjoy anything?? This does truly suck! (And not in a good way!)
I really would appreciate any feedback. Really cannot fathom this.
We are still in lockdown even though parts of our state is beginning to open.The weather is good today. What else is positive?
So my 3 months total abstinence project that took so many attempts to finally complete easily dragged onto 4 months. Didn't even take effort. There was barely any desire to go back. It took me by surprise. I don't know where to go with it from here. Feel like I just need to keep on rolling with this thing. See how far it goes. Think I have definitely felt better for it.