ok so if you read my other post about never orgasming before. I thought that I would give everybody a followup. Its dirty so be warned. I O'd for the first time and figured out dirty way of helping hubby with ed issue. After reading a guys (i think it was joe?) post about the best bj he ever had. I'm gonna share all the details with you just because it was that awesome for me :)
Well everybody has been telling me to just relax and try to enjoy it and just go with it and not think to hard, and dont let the smells and fluids bother me. its just a natural part of our body's enjoying each other. And I helped hubby get through 1 of his usual ed episodes. he is not a morning person.

Started out un-normal. with him rubbing all over my body way more than usual, which got me into the mood. I thought it would be the usaual "ok rubbed you now lets go" but no! He rolled me over on my back and rubbed on my shoulders for a while, which is always awesome. the foreplay went on for a while this time!! then once we began. I was really into it for once. I thought to myself "I actually I can actually feel something! sweet!". but he isnt a morning person and has trouble keeping it up in the mornings. So we stoped. but that voice that you guys incouraged me with said " NO!"
So I was still in the mood and rolled him over and thought i'd try messing with him to get him erect again. So I kissed on him for a while and had fun with his body. I decided it was time to get over my gross out feeling of smells and body fluids and give him a good bj. at first it was kind of gross cause I could taste where we had just been doing it. but then I remebered we had some flavored lube that a friend gave me. so got that and a cock ring. and it worked!! He enjoyed it (obviously like any guy!) and I actually wasn't that grossed out by it cause I could hear how much he was enjoying it. So he finally pounced and rolled me back over and started again. Well he finished pretty quickly just when I was REally staerting to feel it. He said to me " WOW that was really intence" so I knew he really enjoyed it cause he has never siad that before.
I was really still feeling something down there so I made him lay back down with me and rub on me some more. then he started giveing me a hand job ( i guess thats what you call it) and I realized that it wasn;t hurting me like penil pentration does ( I have endometriosis so it hurts sometimes) and he could rub me as hard as he wanted with his fingers and it would go in far enough to hurt me! Big turn on!
With in a few minutes I had the most intence sensation come over my whole body like fire running through my veins. My face was burning so bad and actually remeber saying omg what happening. Next hting I know I was giggleing uncontrolably and grab the pillow and curled up with it and just kept laughing. I told him I'm sorry I don't know whatsup I cant stop shakeing. He said " its ok thats what its supposed to feel like!" and laughed along with me until I stoped shakeing.
Then once that was ove we both set up on the bed and I knew what had happened. I felt really self concious about myself and curled up with the pillow. But hubby was so awesome and set behind me and just held me and told me "its ok honey I love you, no you are not dirty or gross. Its ok to feel that and enjoy it. I'm so happy for you!" Then we took a shower together after wards and just njoyed each others company till he had to leave for work.
Well sorry for such a novel but I had to share with somebody. Not only was that my first O but also the most amazing sexual experience I ever had :) woohoo!