Not that it's anyone's business, but as a married woman for the longest time, I didn't have the same sex drive as I did at first or any sexual desire for intimacy with my spouse for several justifiable reasons. He turned against me for whatever unknown reason to me, and I was on a high amount of medication, numbed by apathy, and it was only fair since there was a history of mental and emotional disequilibrium between us. Not that my marriage was sexless by any means, I still wanted it, just low libido on my part, a matter of the heart.

Anyhow, after a couple of years, I realized I couldn't sleep because my body was deficient in the hormonal chemical balance that had not been fulfilled. So, naturally, I took it upon myself to "self-regulate" and tried to fix the problem on my own with professional medical advice.

Fully aware of my circumstance, I requested meds to help cope with the sexual desire and physiological need to help my brain relax, get some of that dopamine/natural high, and get my sleep back up and running. To my surprise, my psychiatrist, knowing of my marital situation, asked instead, "Why don't you masturbate?" I immediately told him how I felt and my inclination at the thought, we all know it isn't the same.

It's not equivalent to my standards or expectations; besides, my body knows the difference as an empath, and I desire heavenly intimacy. I don't take chances, that's not for me, and regardless, I need to get some sleep. So, when people have said "We're not perfect" or "Nobody is perfect." This means we all have ways to cope with life and circumstances. Some people turn to religion and their religiosity, I ran from such and turned to science, it's common sense to me, and it saved my marriage.

But honestly, by seeking alternatives aligned to my life and testimony, other than to lose my mind and own soul by doing something harmful, I'd say I'm just as perfect as I can get! I don't have a problem admitting that I practice Scientology.

According to science, the study of the physical world, masturbation is not a sin, is healthy.