I'm sure by reading the title you have come to the conclusion that I'm either mentally ill or sleep deprived, perhaps the later, but this is the biggest question in my life right now.

Background: My Husband and I have been together for 15 years and married for 12 1/2 give or take. We have 18 month old twins and 3 dogs. At this time we live in the suburbs of a major city. My Husband has a great job and I'm a stay at home Mom. We look like the poster family for the suburban dream, our home looks like it could be in a photo shoot for Better Homes and Garden or Martha Stewarts Living Magazine. The last professional position I held was at a VP level.

My Husband has been feeling like his life has been too hectic for years and he has wanted a bit of a slowdown. With the addition of our little ones, the pace of life has seemed to hit an all-time high and added to the pile are my Parents and their poor health. He says he's brain fried and sits in his cubicle and watches the Lawn Care Specialists doing their job and is totally envious of them. He wants to move to the country and by property, at least 10 acres plus. I've seen him checking out tractors online, along with property and houses. He recently took one of our dogs to a herding class and came home with the notion that he would like to have a hobby farm with chickens, cows and predominantly sheep. Yes, bah, bah - sheep. This comes from the man who barely wants to cut the grass now, who has lawn care come out and weed & feed, who's clothes always miss the hamper, who's never been on a farm a day in his life, who can't fix anything (repair teams are on speed dial), and who works 60 hours a week with a 10 hour commute per week.

PLEASE - please understand I'm not bashing my Husband. I love him dearly and he is my entire world. This is precisely why I'm writing this post. I truly want to help him in any way I can, but I'm scared. I don't know if I can handle the dogs, train them, train myself to bring sheep in or out to pasture. I'm not confident enough in myself to handle a firearm to scare off coyotes or to God forbid put an animal down while my Husband's at work. I'm not sure if I want to muck barns and sell eggs and milk a cow twice daily (sorry folks I admit I like my yearly vacation to the Outer Banks) and did I mention take care of the kids including Homeschooling when age appropriate (another new request by my Husband). I have zero faith in myself.

Am I being crazy here? We would give up a beautiful home with everything we could ever want or need at our disposal and instead end up with a hundred year old farm house in the middle of nowhere, needing thousands of dollars of repairs and updates, with my husband gone 70 hours a week and the responsibility of sheep.

I've asked him to slow down a touch with the dream, not shelf it, just slow down so I can adjust. That I want to help him but I'm just not there yet. He's pushing forward and I feel so lost. Do I take the plunge and embrace the sheep? Can anyone offer helpful advice on how to open the line of communication (I'm using my feeling words but I don't think he's hearing me)?

Thanks!