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She is now datin a guy&moving2my town-try2meet her

Wannabe-Doc
Wannabe-Doc

I am becoming attracted to girls but I am married... I spoke to him about it bcuz he is also my bestfriend and he told me its called Bicurious. He is very loyal and doesnt know how to deal with me and these urges. I started to watch lesbian porn and now I think I am getting worse. I stopped watching the porn for months now hoping it was just a phase and I will get over it. I dont think its working. An online female friend came on to me and I think I wanted her to... but we never met in person so I thought it couldnt hurt. I became addicted to her and she wanted to meet up to hang out. He knows about her "just a friend with the same bday" and she knows about me being married. On the evening we were gonna meet up for the first time, she sent me a text asking if it was ok to make-out with me... I didnt know how to react (I was flattered and was kinda hoping she would make out with me but then I wondered if that means I wud be cheating so I didnt go to meet her) and our friendship pretty much ended....We are still facebook friends but the conversation went from daily to rarely...its been exactly a year today and she posted on facebook that she has a new boyfriend sigh I liked her post but honestly a bit jealous. She will be moving closer to me next week and I keep having urges to attempt reconnecting with her but I know its a bad idea but then I confuse myself and think meh she might not even want to meet me its been so long since we almost dated/cheated/meet lol i feel silly 



 
rmb
rmb
Indulging curiosity about anyone, male or female, outside of your relationship is a problem. If you aren't happy in your marriage, get out of it first and then explore, meet people, etc.
Wannabe-Doc
Wannabe-Doc
Thank you! You are so right... and I know that, guess I just needed it to come from some-else but I jus keep getting tempted (especially wen I go out to seek temptation) so getting a reminder from others is always helpful to keep on the right track
Aronia
Aronia
It's kind of strange, I ve always been attracted to women, tried it in my 20s and it was a relationship, not just a sex thing and then I realized that attraction is just an attraction and I'm 100% sure I want to be with men, even though I still find women attractive.
There are so many variations.. could there just be something lacking in your marriage?
There are some couple that are able to have sex with other people, but many times it doesn't end well at all..
most people I know who ventured out are now divorced. Not worth it when the kids are involved.
Wannabe-Doc
Wannabe-Doc
Thank you ... After a bit of researching lastnight (read other posts) I did realize the many variations , I really can not picture myself having sex with another female so maybe it is just an attraction and I may just be getting carried away with the euphoria of indulging curiosity.... Hopefully my marriage isnt lacking, I may just need to avoid temptation, or I shud probably have a sit down with the hubby to develop some healthy relationship strengthening habits i dont know sigh
Aronia
Aronia
Maybe the sex has gotten too routine ?
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I don't think you can have a good marriage and a good affair.... In marriage even if it's a great marriage you see all the warts after a while.....
I agree not to seek another person while your married .... Good luck in what you decide..... xo
Wannabe-Doc
Wannabe-Doc
I dont think the sex in my marriage has gotten too routine, its always spontaneous...... I think our mismatch schedule is the cause , guess i was seeking attention elsewhere instead of attempting to set up / schedule time with my hubby ... We will be having a sit down conversation this weekend to arrange/ make time for each other moving forward..

I decided to not reconnect with her, i shud leave her alone and not intervene with her new relationship but instead focus on building my marriage... infidelity tempts many people, sadly i had to be one of those people, sigh but i will try not to indulge or even try to put myself into that position anymore...
rmb
rmb
Good for you!
Wannabe-Doc
Wannabe-Doc
Yea I feel dumb posting this publicly but the feedback was a very helpful wake-up, I never want to be a homewrecker nor a cheater, intruding on other peoples relationship and disregarding my own, wow somehow I got caught up and allowed myself to think about slackness sigh thankfully I didnt act on impulse and did something regrettable
Aronia
Aronia
frok what I ve heard, this is common in long relationships and people just catch themselves and revert to workintnon their marriages as you said.
I m glad you chose your husband. Good job
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