lastnight i had a major breakthrough- called Matt's mom and everything was explained to me and i now feel i know why he is such an idiot and why he can't face life or be responsible for himself- he is truly a 4 year old trapped inside a 40 year olds body.... i can't be responsible for him any longer and i can't make excuses for him. he blames his family and after getting to know them i know its not their fault- they are awesome- even if i find out i'm pregnant- i've decided i'm gonna do this on my own and raise the baby with the support of his family and my family and friends- things will be ok- and i'm starting to realize this- its happening i'm on my way to a better life and i'm so excited to see what the future has to bring to my life... i have learned a very valuable life lesson- and i will never forget it- maybe all things do happen for a reason- just thought i'd share this with ya'll ... also i'm here if anyone needs support- we can all get through these times of difficulty and should celebrate our victories over our personal demons.......