I have been fortunate enough to be with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. We met my first year of college and we've had our times of bickering and never really had any big fights. We both have been on the receiving end of troubled times from school and family and relied on eachother for support. This past summer in late May, my boyfriend felt stuck in his life and he said it himself that he didn't approach the topic very well. But that night he brought up the possiblity of us breaking up to dedicate more time to figuring things out in his life. We both ended up crying and I was very hurt and shocked and told him that we can give eachother space to sort out what should be done. I wasn't ready to let go of him and thoughts of what he was thinking led to anxiety and worry being built quickly over time of where our relationship stood. A week later we met up and he decided he was rash in thinking and glad he didn't make the mistake of breaking up. However, I was still left with hurt, pain, and insecurity which developed into panic attacks, anxiety, and depression soon after. I see a therapist which she said because it was a traumatic experience of loss in a sense, it made sense for me to develop tgose symptoms. Soon after, therapy sessions and anti anxiety medication of effexor helped with symptoms. However, feelings of doubt still linger even though I know I love my boyfriend. He makes me happy, I make him happy but theres still a feeling of a dark cloud that washes over me from time to time and I'm just pushing myself to what else is wrong in which that I still have my anxiety and moments of depression even though my relationship is repaired and wounds are healing? Luckily my panic attacks are gone and I hope they never come back. Any advice or words to offer to me? Thank you and have a great day.