Morning all. just thought I would check in.
Im doing better now. The constant crying has stopped , although it does catch me out sometimes at odd moments.
I have moved into a new place with my daughter and we both enrol at University today! yay! The journey begins.
As for HIM.
Well, last night my youngest daughter (15 lives with her Dad and visisted me at weekends) was trying to get her laptop to work better so was running some virus checkers etc. She looked at the browsing history. My EX had been looking up escort services and lesbian porn. I am flabbergasted. It doesnt give a date but says 6+ months ago, so this would make it Feb/March time this year. The interesting thing is that when I asked him about it he said it was two months ago ( and we were still together then) She has had the laptop at her Dads house for three months so thats a lie right there. So when I mentioned to him about it he said he was searching on the sites to see if I was working as a prostitute. WTF! Charming.
So there we are, at the beginning of the year I had just started my business and he was pretty much at my office every day and he knew exactly where I was and when. I remember he took a photo of my diary on my desk once.
So the realisation that this is one sick unhealthy person is slowly filtering down. I am shocked. I was a good wife, even if I was unhappy. He never once suggested we talk or try and work on things. He has also hinted that if he doesnt agree with the comments on the divorce paperwork he wont accept it. sigh. I tried to put things which he couldnt argue with but I guess he will anyway. Silly me, I should have played that differently!
Anyway all okay here, I feel like Im coming out of the fog.
I have suffered with profuse nightsweats that wake me a minimum of 2 to 3 times a night. Ive had my thyroid tested seen doctors. No one can give me a clear anwser. Sadly it isnt menopause either. This all started when I was 40. Im going to be 55 in 3 days. I havent slept thru the night in 15 years. Due to my own research on the matter I have come to belive it is caused from my Complex PTSD.I...
Good morning dear friends it's nice and sunny the birds are singing what a lovely day, what's the weather like were you are to day and what are you going tobe doing. Have a great day dear friends.