I made a comment two nights ago that really upset my boyfriend about something I used to do in bed with my ex. It just kind of came out and it TOTALLY was not intended to upset him. We were casually talking about our sex life and I said "Well that's happened in the past with one of my ex boyfriends". It was super casual and NOT ill- intended. He completely blew up in my face over the comment, and told me to get out of his house and that I was a fucking idiot. I tried to explain myself and say no, I didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry if it hurt your feelings but I really didn't mean it like that it just came up! He wouldn't have it. He kept saying how I couldn't own up to anything and that I was deflecting the blame. I didn't know what to own up to because I truly did not mean for it to hurt him. My response was, "I'm sorry if it hurt you, but I can't own up to something that I didn't mean to do in the first place. You want me to own up to intentionally hurting you with that comment.. which I never meant to do!" He wouldn't accept it. He told me to "shut the fuck up" and rolled over and told me to go home. It was midnight, and I just laid and laid in bed and stared at the ceiling. I had an anxiety attack that he was going to break up with me or I had seriously screwed up things between us. I didn't mean for that comment to come out the way it did, but we all say things we don't mean. He said such hurtful, aggressive, MEAN things to me, and when I called him out on it, he didn't apologize. Telling your girlfriend she is a fucking idiot and to shut the fuck up, when all I do is try to please him, seems so disrespectful to me. Yet, I'm blaming myself for making the comment... the rational side of me thinks he overreacted, but the emotional side of me wants to beat myself up over it and let all his mean horrible comments slide by. The next day, he apologized and said he did overreact, and I said "you know that wasn't my intent". He said he knew, and we cuddled and watched a movie together. Things seemed fine. Yet, a full day has passed and I haven't heard from him. Do men dwell on things like this-- or was it over when we spoke about it and he has just been busy today? I feel like him not contacting means he thought about it again and is angry all over again. Am I the wrong one TO BEGIN WITH in this situation?
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