I found this board about a year ago. I read so many posts before feeling comfortable enough to tell my story. The support I received was so awesome and I'm extremely grateful to all that did respond. I've had my g/daughter since she was a few days old. It was scary taking on this precious child at my age, but through the strength that God gave me and the wonderful support from so many different people, I knew it was the right thing to do. My little angel is 15 1/2 months old now. She is absolutely the light of my life. As much as I get worn down....she gives me the willpower to keep on going! She has brought joy to me that I have never felt. She might not have a mom and dad in her life, but she has a nana that loves her more than life. It hasn't been the easiest road...the sleepless nights...the total exhaustion...the time consumption and having to change your life to her schedule.....but I know she is so worth it. I pray every day that I do the right things for her. I pray that she will be able to understand that she wasn't abandoned. I pray that she will always know that she is so loved and wanted. Biological parent....anyone can give birth...it definitely doesn't make you a parent. I try to keep my angry feelings far away, but I will truly never understand how you can just not know if your child is even alive. So I know I have alot ahead of me and I know it's not going to be easy, but I do know that she will not suffer for what her parents have done. Hugs and the highest respect to all of your g/parents raising these innocent children. They are protected and loved and that's all they need. We can do this!!!! Maybe not with the spunk we had with our own children...but we can still do this!!! Thanks for this board and to you wonderful grandparents!!